23-August-2008
Dear blog,
I noticed that there's something heavy that I am feeling and my body has a tiresome mood. I slept for about 9 hours but I still feel not fully refreshed.
Now I am somewhat feeling symptoms of a fever. I can feel that my body has a high temperature and I feel really tired. I drank coffee in the morning to let myself awake throughout the day but it seems that caffeine has no effect. I think that my body had already developed a caffeine tolerance. i took supplements to stay revitalized and ate a good high-calorie foods but they could have a hard time to be transfused in my bloodstream to every cells of my body.
during my training yesterday, I swam a total of 3500 meters but it was just once in this very week. I could swim such distance for two consecutive training sessions and would still be energetic afterwards.
and indeed I got a fever and i slept immediately when I'm home taking an overdose of vitamin C.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Saturday, August 23, 2008
BIBAK 2008-Acquaintance and Induction Party
BIBAK 2008-Acquaintance and Induction Party
“Mun-ooha Angkan nankakalasi ye Kaugadian”
Guest Speaker: Dr. Ryan Guinaran
Palispis Hall, Capitol Building, Latrinidad, Benguet
Aug. 16, 2008 2:30-9:00 p.m.
I bought a ticket from one of the BIBAK officers and had attended the party.
I don’t know what exactly the meaning of the theme. It’s kinda Ibaloi words I think and I haven’t asked anyone regarding such, I am only interested in going to the party though just like the rest of the party goers.
The scheduled time was 2:30-9:00. 2:30 would had been the start but I arrived there at about 6:00 having in mind that there would only be few people there at the early start of the afternoon. I thought that people would only go there to attend at the early evening and they’re anticipating for sure, the dinner.
I arrived there and greeted some of my classmates. The newly elected officers were dancing with gongs when I entered in their g-strings. Good thing we’ve seen their fats and abs burned-off somehow.
Many people were now coming in and the chairs were now starting to be filled in. Students from other schools attended also and had presented their dances.
Sooner, the BIBAK advisers were requested to show their privilege dances and it’s kinda funny to see them dance. The new BIBAK adviser Mr. Cal-agan was taken into a video soon to be uploaded to youtube by his students and he became the face of the night having many fans. His students voted for him.
To cut short, dinner was being served and we were the volunteers to distribute the foods. As for me, BIBAK failed to appoint or form a food committee that would be responsible in the preparation and distribution of foods, purchasing and other food matters. It leads to shortage of prepared foods in the styropores and delayed distribution. The party goers were in there tables eagerly waiting for their dinner but there seemed to be some delays. Anyway, we managed to feed all and soon, the dancing continued.
I didn’t manage to see the ending because I left and had gone home. Lest, there would be no more available jeepneys to ride home.
“Mun-ooha Angkan nankakalasi ye Kaugadian”
Guest Speaker: Dr. Ryan Guinaran
Palispis Hall, Capitol Building, Latrinidad, Benguet
Aug. 16, 2008 2:30-9:00 p.m.
I bought a ticket from one of the BIBAK officers and had attended the party.
I don’t know what exactly the meaning of the theme. It’s kinda Ibaloi words I think and I haven’t asked anyone regarding such, I am only interested in going to the party though just like the rest of the party goers.
The scheduled time was 2:30-9:00. 2:30 would had been the start but I arrived there at about 6:00 having in mind that there would only be few people there at the early start of the afternoon. I thought that people would only go there to attend at the early evening and they’re anticipating for sure, the dinner.
I arrived there and greeted some of my classmates. The newly elected officers were dancing with gongs when I entered in their g-strings. Good thing we’ve seen their fats and abs burned-off somehow.
Many people were now coming in and the chairs were now starting to be filled in. Students from other schools attended also and had presented their dances.
Sooner, the BIBAK advisers were requested to show their privilege dances and it’s kinda funny to see them dance. The new BIBAK adviser Mr. Cal-agan was taken into a video soon to be uploaded to youtube by his students and he became the face of the night having many fans. His students voted for him.
To cut short, dinner was being served and we were the volunteers to distribute the foods. As for me, BIBAK failed to appoint or form a food committee that would be responsible in the preparation and distribution of foods, purchasing and other food matters. It leads to shortage of prepared foods in the styropores and delayed distribution. The party goers were in there tables eagerly waiting for their dinner but there seemed to be some delays. Anyway, we managed to feed all and soon, the dancing continued.
I didn’t manage to see the ending because I left and had gone home. Lest, there would be no more available jeepneys to ride home.
Friday, August 22, 2008
Wisdom from the Ostrich
Job 13:13-18
(13)"The wings of the ostrich flap joyfully, but they cannot compare with the pinions and feathers of the stork.
(14)She lays eggs on the ground and lets them warm in the sand,
(15)Unmindful that a foot may crush them, that some animal may trample them.
(16)She treats her young harshly, as if they were not hers; She cares not her labor was in vain,
(17)For God did not endow her with wisdom or give her a share of good sense.
(18)Yet when she spreads her feathers to run, she laughs at the horse and its rider.
(13)"The wings of the ostrich flap joyfully, but they cannot compare with the pinions and feathers of the stork.
(14)She lays eggs on the ground and lets them warm in the sand,
(15)Unmindful that a foot may crush them, that some animal may trample them.
(16)She treats her young harshly, as if they were not hers; She cares not her labor was in vain,
(17)For God did not endow her with wisdom or give her a share of good sense.
(18)Yet when she spreads her feathers to run, she laughs at the horse and its rider.
Wandering Thoughts
My mind has been wandering
this very moment
Of doing nothing except
just staring at the ceiling
I begin to fantasize
So many ideas flying in my surroundings
absorbed by my keen perception
Ideas I hear and see, feel and smell
and taste in the air
They are making me more perplexed
The surroundings that I perceive
I wonder if they're real
I can't comprehend them
in detailed panorama
they're just shallow things
called Illusion
Lights I see dont give off
their glare
and my mind is blank
Saving it just exclusively
for my sanity's sake
Such a turmoil, my brain's
gonna explode
Time is passing and I noticed
every moment lost
Thoughts that wander on nothingness
Thoughts that are no better than air
this very moment
Of doing nothing except
just staring at the ceiling
I begin to fantasize
So many ideas flying in my surroundings
absorbed by my keen perception
Ideas I hear and see, feel and smell
and taste in the air
They are making me more perplexed
The surroundings that I perceive
I wonder if they're real
I can't comprehend them
in detailed panorama
they're just shallow things
called Illusion
Lights I see dont give off
their glare
and my mind is blank
Saving it just exclusively
for my sanity's sake
Such a turmoil, my brain's
gonna explode
Time is passing and I noticed
every moment lost
Thoughts that wander on nothingness
Thoughts that are no better than air
Monday, August 18, 2008
18-08-2008
I woke up at around 1:30 in the morning and immediately got up from my sleep. I put my cellphone on the alarm but i woke up minutes before it should alarm. I walked from T. Alonzo to Session road holding the things my brother had told me to send him. It took me I think, about 30 minutes to walk to my destination. Arriving at the Victory Liner terminal at Gov. Pack road just below SM, I noticed that the terminal was still dark. The person Mr. Carpio whom I should deliver my brother's stuffs told me that he'll go there at 2:30 and as for me, I got there too early enough. We were supposed to rendezvous there so that he could take the first trip to Olongapo. It was still 2 o'clock and I got an hour to spare. I ate some soup in a foodstore and later try to find some internet shops to enjoy the hour I have instead of just waiting. I go downward to Session Rosd and I found an internet cafe not too far from where I came but unfortunately, there was no internet connection. The operator said that there seemed to have some problem with PLDT. I go to two more internet cafes but the same reply did I receive. I could not just play DotA, I want to surf.
At about 3 am., I go back to the terminal and Mr. Carpio was still not there. I called him many times but I received no reply. The cellphone was unattended. I thought 3 a.m. was the first trip but the place was still dim. In my way to the terminal, at the intersection of Session Road and Gov. Pack road, I've seen a bunch of people, all of them were students and I noticed a girl wearing a SLU jacket similar with ours. I didn't see the face. I only seen the eyes. She covered her mouth with his hair when she turn back and had seen me. I didn't dare even to see her full face. I just tried to recognize the faces of her companions hoping i could get a hint. Probably, someone from my team gave her the jacket. But I'm not yet on the right ground to jump into conclusions but I will try to affirm my speculation. I pray it was not Rona because being with such company would make her a bad girl and I am unable to tink such about her.
Arriving at the terminal, I asked the person there and he told me that Baguio-Olongapo trips were all now in their other terminal at Engineer's hill. I go there (I walked 10 mins. to arrive there) and noticed some PMMA cadets but I didn't dare to talk to them. I also noticed a PMMA cadet while I ws waiting at Gov. Pack and I thought he was Mr. Carpio and I tried to call him but the reply was unattended.
I myself had gone to Olongapo about 3 years ago and we took our trip at Gov. Pack and even when I accompanied my brother to the Terminal going to Olongapo, they took tickets at Gov. Pack. So I walked my way again to Gov. PAck road and finally asked the conductor regarding the first trip and told me that all trips to Olongapo were on their other terminal. It was confirmed. I asked when was the first rip and he told me that it was 3:30. I walked fast to Engineer's Hill again and the security guard told me that the first trip has gone already. I thought I lose him. I didn't stop to call him and while I was in the CR, he called and thanked me for my calls because he was awakened though. He told me he would take the trip at Gov. Pack on 5 o'clock. If he had gone already, I would deliver the things and the money to the PMMAers waiting for their trip. that would be the inconceivable choice. He told me he was on his way. I sat down and tried to converse with the PMMA cadet beside me. Their response was snappy. Soon they asked me who my brother was and soon introduced ourselves and got our cellphone numbers. The female cadet told me that she knew my brother and that they were renting rooms near my brother's in San RAfael. At about 5 o'clock, the bus bound to Olongapo started its engine and people begun to ride including the cadets. Mr. Carpio arrived and I handed him my brother's things and they aboard the bus and rode the ride of their lives. I walked back to T> Alonzo to my cousin's boarding house and fell asleep.
At about 3 am., I go back to the terminal and Mr. Carpio was still not there. I called him many times but I received no reply. The cellphone was unattended. I thought 3 a.m. was the first trip but the place was still dim. In my way to the terminal, at the intersection of Session Road and Gov. Pack road, I've seen a bunch of people, all of them were students and I noticed a girl wearing a SLU jacket similar with ours. I didn't see the face. I only seen the eyes. She covered her mouth with his hair when she turn back and had seen me. I didn't dare even to see her full face. I just tried to recognize the faces of her companions hoping i could get a hint. Probably, someone from my team gave her the jacket. But I'm not yet on the right ground to jump into conclusions but I will try to affirm my speculation. I pray it was not Rona because being with such company would make her a bad girl and I am unable to tink such about her.
Arriving at the terminal, I asked the person there and he told me that Baguio-Olongapo trips were all now in their other terminal at Engineer's hill. I go there (I walked 10 mins. to arrive there) and noticed some PMMA cadets but I didn't dare to talk to them. I also noticed a PMMA cadet while I ws waiting at Gov. Pack and I thought he was Mr. Carpio and I tried to call him but the reply was unattended.
I myself had gone to Olongapo about 3 years ago and we took our trip at Gov. Pack and even when I accompanied my brother to the Terminal going to Olongapo, they took tickets at Gov. Pack. So I walked my way again to Gov. PAck road and finally asked the conductor regarding the first trip and told me that all trips to Olongapo were on their other terminal. It was confirmed. I asked when was the first rip and he told me that it was 3:30. I walked fast to Engineer's Hill again and the security guard told me that the first trip has gone already. I thought I lose him. I didn't stop to call him and while I was in the CR, he called and thanked me for my calls because he was awakened though. He told me he would take the trip at Gov. Pack on 5 o'clock. If he had gone already, I would deliver the things and the money to the PMMAers waiting for their trip. that would be the inconceivable choice. He told me he was on his way. I sat down and tried to converse with the PMMA cadet beside me. Their response was snappy. Soon they asked me who my brother was and soon introduced ourselves and got our cellphone numbers. The female cadet told me that she knew my brother and that they were renting rooms near my brother's in San RAfael. At about 5 o'clock, the bus bound to Olongapo started its engine and people begun to ride including the cadets. Mr. Carpio arrived and I handed him my brother's things and they aboard the bus and rode the ride of their lives. I walked back to T> Alonzo to my cousin's boarding house and fell asleep.
Friday, August 15, 2008
Our Heavenly Dwelling
2 Corinthians 5:1-10
(1)Now we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands.
(2)Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling,
(3)Because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked
(4)For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life.
(5)Now it is God who has made us for this very purpose and has given us the spirit as deposit, guaranteeing what is to come
(6)Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord
(7)We live by faith, not by sight
(8)We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord
(9)So we make it our goal to please Him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it.
(10)For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, that each one may receive what is due to him for the things done while in the body, whether good or bad.
(1)Now we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands.
(2)Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling,
(3)Because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked
(4)For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life.
(5)Now it is God who has made us for this very purpose and has given us the spirit as deposit, guaranteeing what is to come
(6)Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord
(7)We live by faith, not by sight
(8)We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord
(9)So we make it our goal to please Him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it.
(10)For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, that each one may receive what is due to him for the things done while in the body, whether good or bad.
Grey Clouds
A near black cotton-like vapor of water
in the atmosphere
It has never stopped to amaze me
Making me think that you have something
which you are concealing on your bosom
Are you a sign of fair weather
or an impending rain?
But I know many people would certainly think
That you're carrying
your rain with you
That you're ready to burst
I could somehow see rays of the sun
passing through you
Although your dim color
absorbed some of its radiance
Which means you're not keeping the light
for yourself
It'll gonna rain tonight
or tomorrow morning
But I've forecasted already
that you'll let go
of your rainwater vessel
because I've seen pink and orange
sunset yesterday
You seemed to affect the mood of us creatures
yet you're powerless against our wants and desires
You seemed to try to give a message
to us of some sort
An enigma for us to be unable to comprehend
a Divine wonder you behold
Thanks to you, I cannot see
the beautiful sunset at dusk
Only do I see now was a darkness
slowly prevailing against the light
You have made my night long this time
but I do know now,
that the only option for us is to accept
that it's now your season
and you're now the ruler of the skies.
in the atmosphere
It has never stopped to amaze me
Making me think that you have something
which you are concealing on your bosom
Are you a sign of fair weather
or an impending rain?
But I know many people would certainly think
That you're carrying
your rain with you
That you're ready to burst
I could somehow see rays of the sun
passing through you
Although your dim color
absorbed some of its radiance
Which means you're not keeping the light
for yourself
It'll gonna rain tonight
or tomorrow morning
But I've forecasted already
that you'll let go
of your rainwater vessel
because I've seen pink and orange
sunset yesterday
You seemed to affect the mood of us creatures
yet you're powerless against our wants and desires
You seemed to try to give a message
to us of some sort
An enigma for us to be unable to comprehend
a Divine wonder you behold
Thanks to you, I cannot see
the beautiful sunset at dusk
Only do I see now was a darkness
slowly prevailing against the light
You have made my night long this time
but I do know now,
that the only option for us is to accept
that it's now your season
and you're now the ruler of the skies.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
I haven't seen her Today
I go to the right side of the mezzanine floor, 5th level of Mnsgr. Charles Vath Building to read my textbooks and I haven't seen her. I expected to I could she was here to review also his lessons but to my big disappointment, she's not. We used to see each other on that part of the library because we used to review there, making that part of the library an entry to be added in my list of unforgettable places where love had asked for the dance. I do like her but I don't know if she likes me as well and I think she does because there were times when our eyes crossed each other's. She was also taking BS Accountancy. I'm certain of it as evidenced by what she was reading and as I can see, she is a hard-working, academic-type of . I don't know if she have had a boyfriend but if she does have at this point in time, we had no other thing then to do except just flirting.
Granting that she doesn't have yet, perhaps, I would have to go to the library more frequently so as to establish to her an impression of me being a nerdy-type of guy or a responsible guy somehow.
So that I could be on her suitor's list if ever she took notice of me always as such.
I really miss her and that glancing("pasulyap-sulyap") moves we are indicating.
He He He! College life sometimes was indeed colorful and full of unexpected surprises.
I have finally proven that being a library goer do have some perks in it just like this heart-beating, hormone-induced and keen awareness-influenced circumstance that came by these past 3 days.
Library Life= Love Life
weeeew!!!! HA HA HA!!!
Yeah ga.
Granting that she doesn't have yet, perhaps, I would have to go to the library more frequently so as to establish to her an impression of me being a nerdy-type of guy or a responsible guy somehow.
So that I could be on her suitor's list if ever she took notice of me always as such.
I really miss her and that glancing("pasulyap-sulyap") moves we are indicating.
He He He! College life sometimes was indeed colorful and full of unexpected surprises.
I have finally proven that being a library goer do have some perks in it just like this heart-beating, hormone-induced and keen awareness-influenced circumstance that came by these past 3 days.
Library Life= Love Life
weeeew!!!! HA HA HA!!!
Yeah ga.
About our requirement in FinMan 7
7:49 12 August 2008
It's been 3 meetings that we haven't done anything in our finMan 7 subject. We were supposed to be spending or time discussing or report on Jollibee Foods Corporation. But as for us, we just chat on some nonsense stuffs ranging from our academic activities, our instructors, dreams and other things non related to our subject. Boredom overtook me so I have no other choice to make myself busy but to get a draft paper and a pen and write a blog entry.
Yeah boy!
Like the days of old, it's in this way that I am able to utilize or spent my boring time into something constructive and personality-developing hobby.
Our group leader told us to polish whatever the outcome of our input on Thursday. I haven't even have a clear idea of what role will I play but I assure them my full cooperation nevertheless. My group mates have their idea of our jingle already and we, boys, are expected to dance .
They told me to be the one to act like Cesar Montano in the ABS-CBN evening show or Mike Enriquez of GMA7 news report program Imbestigador but I'm certain that I would have some slutter in my voice if I choose such role taking into consideration that I haven't yet experienced to be a jolly host.
My other group mates had made their research already on their assigned part.
Ours were not yet been started yet and I felt like I was of no use to the group. But regardless of such, I am willing to act what they will instruct me.
I'll do my best, If it's the only thing I could be able to have as my contribution to the group. And most of all, they expect me to do best.
It's been 3 meetings that we haven't done anything in our finMan 7 subject. We were supposed to be spending or time discussing or report on Jollibee Foods Corporation. But as for us, we just chat on some nonsense stuffs ranging from our academic activities, our instructors, dreams and other things non related to our subject. Boredom overtook me so I have no other choice to make myself busy but to get a draft paper and a pen and write a blog entry.
Yeah boy!
Like the days of old, it's in this way that I am able to utilize or spent my boring time into something constructive and personality-developing hobby.
Our group leader told us to polish whatever the outcome of our input on Thursday. I haven't even have a clear idea of what role will I play but I assure them my full cooperation nevertheless. My group mates have their idea of our jingle already and we, boys, are expected to dance .
They told me to be the one to act like Cesar Montano in the ABS-CBN evening show or Mike Enriquez of GMA7 news report program Imbestigador but I'm certain that I would have some slutter in my voice if I choose such role taking into consideration that I haven't yet experienced to be a jolly host.
My other group mates had made their research already on their assigned part.
Ours were not yet been started yet and I felt like I was of no use to the group. But regardless of such, I am willing to act what they will instruct me.
I'll do my best, If it's the only thing I could be able to have as my contribution to the group. And most of all, they expect me to do best.
My Yesterday -Myself
You have been my greatest adversary
in all the world
Stronger than all my foes
And it would only be you,
The odd I will forever strive
to overcome
Since birth,
you have been predestined before me
To add weights on my shoulders
and to make me stumble in the road of life.
You hold my hands and my feet
Tied them with chains making me unable to walk
I am your creator and only to me
you are supposed to bow
but you rose up against me
and overcame me
never been grateful
that you strength came from me
You came to me unexpectedly
stalking in the very shadows
of my darkest thoughts
You made the world just a mediocre
"oikos" to live in
And without mercy nor regret,
you have been attacking me these many times
How in the world,
Myself had risen up against me?
Are you my reality or just some sort
of mirage or a mental parasite?
Is it not I who created you or molded you?
Or the world has corrupted you already?
I created you with my best intention
with sweat and blood, I laid your very foundation;
with days of frustrations and sleepless nights,
I designed your very form
I couldn't help now but
to surpass you once and for all
I would not destroy you
but instead, I would make you stronger
so that I would make myself stronger
than you are
You are a part of myself
You meddle with my yesterdays
and I would never let you escape such oblivion
You're my past and I would surpass you
in all the world
Stronger than all my foes
And it would only be you,
The odd I will forever strive
to overcome
Since birth,
you have been predestined before me
To add weights on my shoulders
and to make me stumble in the road of life.
You hold my hands and my feet
Tied them with chains making me unable to walk
I am your creator and only to me
you are supposed to bow
but you rose up against me
and overcame me
never been grateful
that you strength came from me
You came to me unexpectedly
stalking in the very shadows
of my darkest thoughts
You made the world just a mediocre
"oikos" to live in
And without mercy nor regret,
you have been attacking me these many times
How in the world,
Myself had risen up against me?
Are you my reality or just some sort
of mirage or a mental parasite?
Is it not I who created you or molded you?
Or the world has corrupted you already?
I created you with my best intention
with sweat and blood, I laid your very foundation;
with days of frustrations and sleepless nights,
I designed your very form
I couldn't help now but
to surpass you once and for all
I would not destroy you
but instead, I would make you stronger
so that I would make myself stronger
than you are
You are a part of myself
You meddle with my yesterdays
and I would never let you escape such oblivion
You're my past and I would surpass you
Monday, August 11, 2008
The day Tiongsan-Harrisson was on Fire
April 2, 2008
We were purchasing at around 10 a.m. in the lowest floor or the grocery part of Tiongsan. After taking the listed grocery items, I lined up in the cashier to pay our purchases. While standing in the queue of people waiting for my turn, I suddenly noticed the sprinklers in the ceiling connected to some water pipes. I am just staring at those installed sprinklers with a blank mind and later thought that Tiongsan management had made some insurance that a conflagration will never occur in the newest Tiongsan branch. I even thought at that time that Tiongsan is safe from fire as evidenced by the anti-fire measures and it was near the Baguio city fire Department. After paying and packing our merchandise, we left it at the baggage counter because we have to go somewhere. Good thing I get the receipt and the tag when we left.
We have gone to Tenerace in San Vicente to attend some occasion. We left Tiongsan at about 11 a.m.. We stayed in Tenerace for about 2 hours then decided to go back to town to buy other merchandise at the city market.
We rode ajeep to town. The travel time only took about 15 minutes. We unload the jeep and I noticed some people in panic. I try to figure out what was happening and look at the direction they were looking and they're looking at the Tiongsan Building. The smoke was in the fifth floor and the fire started to grow. Our merchandise was left at the underground floor and police lines were now in the vicinity. There's no way to enter now and we just left our baggages to be refunded later.
My mind was overwhelmed in what happened. I know for sure that I felt something strange just few hours before the fire but never told anyone. Despite of thinking that Tiongsan had some sprinklers, the fire broke out, what an irony.
I wasn;t sure of that something I felt hours before. I couldn't figure it out. I only seen the meaning of such premonition the moment I saw Tiongsan filled with smoke before my eyes.
Sometimes, having subconscious perceptions was overwhelming and had the possibility of making me crazy. And this was not the only psychic experience I have had.
We were purchasing at around 10 a.m. in the lowest floor or the grocery part of Tiongsan. After taking the listed grocery items, I lined up in the cashier to pay our purchases. While standing in the queue of people waiting for my turn, I suddenly noticed the sprinklers in the ceiling connected to some water pipes. I am just staring at those installed sprinklers with a blank mind and later thought that Tiongsan management had made some insurance that a conflagration will never occur in the newest Tiongsan branch. I even thought at that time that Tiongsan is safe from fire as evidenced by the anti-fire measures and it was near the Baguio city fire Department. After paying and packing our merchandise, we left it at the baggage counter because we have to go somewhere. Good thing I get the receipt and the tag when we left.
We have gone to Tenerace in San Vicente to attend some occasion. We left Tiongsan at about 11 a.m.. We stayed in Tenerace for about 2 hours then decided to go back to town to buy other merchandise at the city market.
We rode ajeep to town. The travel time only took about 15 minutes. We unload the jeep and I noticed some people in panic. I try to figure out what was happening and look at the direction they were looking and they're looking at the Tiongsan Building. The smoke was in the fifth floor and the fire started to grow. Our merchandise was left at the underground floor and police lines were now in the vicinity. There's no way to enter now and we just left our baggages to be refunded later.
My mind was overwhelmed in what happened. I know for sure that I felt something strange just few hours before the fire but never told anyone. Despite of thinking that Tiongsan had some sprinklers, the fire broke out, what an irony.
I wasn;t sure of that something I felt hours before. I couldn't figure it out. I only seen the meaning of such premonition the moment I saw Tiongsan filled with smoke before my eyes.
Sometimes, having subconscious perceptions was overwhelming and had the possibility of making me crazy. And this was not the only psychic experience I have had.
My Comment on my Post (Pokemon episode 72- Go West young Meowth) in relation with my life
The episode did really set my heart on fire the first time I had watched it on a television. One way or another, there is a congruence of the story in some way between meowth and meowsie and between me and Rona. Meowth seeing a show of a well-off meowth in Hollywood is like me before having no direction in life after high school and later decided to go to college for a come-what-may success. Arriving at Hollywood, after some short-term mishaps, meowth soon begun to have his fill. Arriving at Baguio city and being enrolled at a prestigious university, my had begun to take shape and everything was started to become clearer. A short time goes by and I've seen such a beautiful and a charming lady, with a flawless smile and a meek look. My heart pumped like never been before and my skin turned red, I had a tingling sensation in my proximities but I didn't let people notice it.
I was introduced to her and I fall inlove.Meowth did find found the meowth of his dreams and so as I.
Just like meowth who felt lowly upon seeing a diamond decorated pokeball from meowsie's trainer and seeing meowsie's glittering eyes upon such sight was my feeling the moment I had known that Rona already had a boyfriend and he was a well-off type of guy who could give Rona anything. I knew I didn't stood a chance to win her heart.
I assumed from that moment that by becoming stronger, more intelligent and a man of great achievement that Rona would take notice of me. I endured rigorous trainings and faced my "terror" accounting instructors just to be able to impress her at least. Meowth on the other hand, was resolved that by becoming like human that meowsie would have as interest in him. I improved little by little at swimming and had been qualified to be an accountancy major. Meowth likewise learned to talk, stand-up and walk like human.
Moment of Truth
Meowth, confident with his newly acquired talents, show himself to meowsie but the opposite happened, he was rejected and considered a freak and he cannot give what his trainer is giving her.
I, on the other hand having heard the news that Rona and her boyfirend's relationship was over, became more confident with myself and soon preparing a courting scheme. To my shock, I was not yet fully prepared and hadn't yet carried out my plan, and the unexpected happend, she had a new boyfriend already for such a short time and I hadn't told her my feelings. I saw it with my own eyes and it burned with vanity and anger. My heart broke and futility begun to take shape. Busted!..
Subsequently tothat until this point in time, just like meowth vowing to become far richer and better than who she ever was, I sworn to become the richest, the fastest swimmer and the most intelligent nerd she had ever seen.
Meowth did fulfill his vow after he joined team rocket. I on the other hand is still in the process of fulfilling my promise and I just got 2 more years to go.
I swear to you Rona. I will become a CPA soon.
I was introduced to her and I fall inlove.Meowth did find found the meowth of his dreams and so as I.
Just like meowth who felt lowly upon seeing a diamond decorated pokeball from meowsie's trainer and seeing meowsie's glittering eyes upon such sight was my feeling the moment I had known that Rona already had a boyfriend and he was a well-off type of guy who could give Rona anything. I knew I didn't stood a chance to win her heart.
I assumed from that moment that by becoming stronger, more intelligent and a man of great achievement that Rona would take notice of me. I endured rigorous trainings and faced my "terror" accounting instructors just to be able to impress her at least. Meowth on the other hand, was resolved that by becoming like human that meowsie would have as interest in him. I improved little by little at swimming and had been qualified to be an accountancy major. Meowth likewise learned to talk, stand-up and walk like human.
Moment of Truth
Meowth, confident with his newly acquired talents, show himself to meowsie but the opposite happened, he was rejected and considered a freak and he cannot give what his trainer is giving her.
I, on the other hand having heard the news that Rona and her boyfirend's relationship was over, became more confident with myself and soon preparing a courting scheme. To my shock, I was not yet fully prepared and hadn't yet carried out my plan, and the unexpected happend, she had a new boyfriend already for such a short time and I hadn't told her my feelings. I saw it with my own eyes and it burned with vanity and anger. My heart broke and futility begun to take shape. Busted!..
Subsequently tothat until this point in time, just like meowth vowing to become far richer and better than who she ever was, I sworn to become the richest, the fastest swimmer and the most intelligent nerd she had ever seen.
Meowth did fulfill his vow after he joined team rocket. I on the other hand is still in the process of fulfilling my promise and I just got 2 more years to go.
I swear to you Rona. I will become a CPA soon.
Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your Strength
Nehemiah 8:9-12
(9)Then Nehemiah the governor, Ezra the priest and scribe and the Levites who were instructing the people said to them all, "This day is sacred to the Lord your God. Do not mourn or weep." For all the people had been weeping as they listened to the words of the Law.
(10)Nehemiah said, "Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have noting prepared. This day is sacred to the Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.
(11)The Levites calmed all the people, saying, "Be still, for this is a sacred day. Do not grieve."
(12)Then all the people went away to eat and drink, to send portions of food and to celebrate with great joy, because they now understood the words that had been made known to them.
(9)Then Nehemiah the governor, Ezra the priest and scribe and the Levites who were instructing the people said to them all, "This day is sacred to the Lord your God. Do not mourn or weep." For all the people had been weeping as they listened to the words of the Law.
(10)Nehemiah said, "Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have noting prepared. This day is sacred to the Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.
(11)The Levites calmed all the people, saying, "Be still, for this is a sacred day. Do not grieve."
(12)Then all the people went away to eat and drink, to send portions of food and to celebrate with great joy, because they now understood the words that had been made known to them.
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Living in a Fantasy Land again
My mind is wandering again. My mouth is wide open and my face was blank. With a stirred emotion of vanity and unfulfilled wishes, I never stopped to think things of thin air.
I am now again living in my own self-created castle that is floating in the clouds- a castle that doesn't exist and I fear I would grow old just imagining such utopia. I couldn't remember when this stuff had started but one thing I know is the cause(I'm not really sure of it), and it was the hallucinating drug called cannibol. It's a mid-altering substance that once drove me crazy.
I am a daydreamer before but such was only minimal but it was made serious by smoking pot.
Ha Ha Ha ! A fantasy land yeah!, aland with hils covered with fine grass with growing wild flowers and many multi-colored butterflies with me running down the slopes? NO, that's not the fantasy land i was trying to convey but it's some kind of a vain ambition. A product of an effortless endeavor. A fruit of idleness or a nonsense desire of some unattainable thing of some sort.
I couldn't ascertain what that was but I do know it exist and therefore it's true. But one thing is true and correct. and that was I Never would I remember such fantasy making neither would a trace or remnant of such would be left in my mind nor my subsconcious. Such fantasy land would surely vanish in an oblivion but daydreaming would always be hot on my heels and would be always knocking at my doorsteps.
And as a remedy for me, I should run non-stop the race of life. I know I could outrun these parasites and self-sabotaging mental stuffs so just keep running ahead then.
Ready, Get, Set, Go! (run)
I am now again living in my own self-created castle that is floating in the clouds- a castle that doesn't exist and I fear I would grow old just imagining such utopia. I couldn't remember when this stuff had started but one thing I know is the cause(I'm not really sure of it), and it was the hallucinating drug called cannibol. It's a mid-altering substance that once drove me crazy.
I am a daydreamer before but such was only minimal but it was made serious by smoking pot.
Ha Ha Ha ! A fantasy land yeah!, aland with hils covered with fine grass with growing wild flowers and many multi-colored butterflies with me running down the slopes? NO, that's not the fantasy land i was trying to convey but it's some kind of a vain ambition. A product of an effortless endeavor. A fruit of idleness or a nonsense desire of some unattainable thing of some sort.
I couldn't ascertain what that was but I do know it exist and therefore it's true. But one thing is true and correct. and that was I Never would I remember such fantasy making neither would a trace or remnant of such would be left in my mind nor my subsconcious. Such fantasy land would surely vanish in an oblivion but daydreaming would always be hot on my heels and would be always knocking at my doorsteps.
And as a remedy for me, I should run non-stop the race of life. I know I could outrun these parasites and self-sabotaging mental stuffs so just keep running ahead then.
Ready, Get, Set, Go! (run)
I could see Brown clouds before, but now, no more
One thing I could still remember was seeing brown clouds like a wild smoke before when I was still young. I would just apply a little pressure into my eyes then there, right infront of me, a magnificent brown cloud expanding and growing.
I of course enjoyed watching those clouds like a baby seeing for the first time a funny and ridiculous thing. It's a sight that I enjoyed and would stir my awareness and emotions.
It's a thing as for me, only I did have. And after watching such, I would just fall asleep without notice.
But now, no matter how hard I try to bring back such closed-eyed sight, I stil couldn't. I even tried putting weight to of my arm but still of no progress. A big difference when I was young that even in waking hours, my eyes could still produce brown clouds.
It was now a thing of the past and what substituted it was seeing tiny flying lights or liquid crystals.
I wish such sight would come again so that I could have a connection with my past at least. So that I could reminisce my childhood dreams and subconscious desire- a desire for acknowledgement and goodwill, a thing every person needed in their childhood- mutual and intimate love and care.
How I would like to become like a child again because I'm tired in this tiresome world of grown-ups. But what's true and necessary was for me now to face what lies ahead.
I should be like a child, adventurous and brave to face new challanges, and willling to learn and grow, and is eager to reach my dreams beyond the rainbow.
I of course enjoyed watching those clouds like a baby seeing for the first time a funny and ridiculous thing. It's a sight that I enjoyed and would stir my awareness and emotions.
It's a thing as for me, only I did have. And after watching such, I would just fall asleep without notice.
But now, no matter how hard I try to bring back such closed-eyed sight, I stil couldn't. I even tried putting weight to of my arm but still of no progress. A big difference when I was young that even in waking hours, my eyes could still produce brown clouds.
It was now a thing of the past and what substituted it was seeing tiny flying lights or liquid crystals.
I wish such sight would come again so that I could have a connection with my past at least. So that I could reminisce my childhood dreams and subconscious desire- a desire for acknowledgement and goodwill, a thing every person needed in their childhood- mutual and intimate love and care.
How I would like to become like a child again because I'm tired in this tiresome world of grown-ups. But what's true and necessary was for me now to face what lies ahead.
I should be like a child, adventurous and brave to face new challanges, and willling to learn and grow, and is eager to reach my dreams beyond the rainbow.
Friday, August 8, 2008
Beijing 2008 Olympics
A big achievement for China on an international/global basis. By reason that sponsoring an Olympic event is a very serious business. A country must first endorse herself and prove that she would be capable to sponsor such a once in a 4 year athletic meet. Many a world's leader's now made their way to Beijing and the streets would soon be full of ant-like-peoples. Many nationalities, tourists, delegates, and sport enthusiasts surely would regard the Beijing 2008 Olympics as a trip of a lifetime. Here they would be able to see their idolized sports superstars. A rumor had said that Beijing had been fully booked 2 years before the start of the Olympics that would be year 2006 and tickets had been all sold out and hotel accommodations had been reserved. Could the Beijing Olympics a sentimental event of some sort? or people are just getting too excited on grasping for the wind.
I don't know but if I could have a ticket and a sufficient provisions, I wouldn't hesitate to go.
China had tried to reduce its emission of harmful gasses and even to the extent of using anti-cloud cannons to make approaching rains into drizzle.
Could many world records be broken and new heights of physical feat be achieved by man? of course with no doping.
But let's see.
-a pre-olympic post
.:Hope I could join the next 2012 Olympics wherever it would be held, if providence would so permit me.
___|||::: I have read Rona's friendster testimonials. the one commented that she should take good care of herself to be able to join the 2008 Olympics. It was just a dream to be tried to achieve and she didn't
But thanks to that and anything else,
Fearful and uncertain, I dived and swam just for her.
I started swimming my race of life since then.
I don't know but if I could have a ticket and a sufficient provisions, I wouldn't hesitate to go.
China had tried to reduce its emission of harmful gasses and even to the extent of using anti-cloud cannons to make approaching rains into drizzle.
Could many world records be broken and new heights of physical feat be achieved by man? of course with no doping.
But let's see.
-a pre-olympic post
.:Hope I could join the next 2012 Olympics wherever it would be held, if providence would so permit me.
___|||::: I have read Rona's friendster testimonials. the one commented that she should take good care of herself to be able to join the 2008 Olympics. It was just a dream to be tried to achieve and she didn't
But thanks to that and anything else,
Fearful and uncertain, I dived and swam just for her.
I started swimming my race of life since then.
Killer Instinct
(1)
A cock fight till de@th
never thought of giving-up
yet after such many fatal blows,
he deserves the task
of crying his mighty crow
with a company of hens to bow down to him
because from him,
the next breed of strong offspring will descend.
(2)
Lions charge to an elephant
careless of being stomped
and be whipped by its mighty trunk.
Because only one thing is he know,
kill or die,
I'm the king of the wilds
and all other animals tremble
upon hearing my roar.
(3)
Eagles took off to dive
from its nest far high in the cliffs.
swooping for the kill,
with its focus on the prey,
down like a thunderbolt,
the prey was pierced by its great talons,
taking the meat to its nest
to feed its hungry chicks
(4)
Bulls charge at the sight of anything crimson
lowering its head and leaning its weight
to its forelimb
stirring dust behind its back
"I can only see the crimson", he say
"I am strong and big, Iwill crush it with my horns
no matter what it was and may happen"
(5)
Felines wait patiently for anything that moves
for hours they keep their eyes focus
undisturbed by physical necessities
and if they could see something is moving,
like the wind with no crack of twigs they approach
and with one mighty blow of its paw
down you rat, I'm so sorry,
but you would be my dinner for tonight.
.:the thing animals have in order to be able to survive in the wilds and harsh and unforgiving habitat. A virtue that had never been changed. A key for sustenance and insurance of survival of a specie. without such, Fauna could long had been extinct.
.:the animals had this impulse and its only one thing- that's for food.
(I speak as regards to myself)
I wish I could have such in attaining my goals and dreams and fulfilling my duty. I admit my heart was soft and this is the thing I lack. But it should be the thing I should have. It's not for my personal or selfish gain but for the fulfillment of my duty and my destiny. Anyway it's just for two years. Because after such time, I will be singing "Que sera,sera! Whatever will be, will be".
A cock fight till de@th
never thought of giving-up
yet after such many fatal blows,
he deserves the task
of crying his mighty crow
with a company of hens to bow down to him
because from him,
the next breed of strong offspring will descend.
(2)
Lions charge to an elephant
careless of being stomped
and be whipped by its mighty trunk.
Because only one thing is he know,
kill or die,
I'm the king of the wilds
and all other animals tremble
upon hearing my roar.
(3)
Eagles took off to dive
from its nest far high in the cliffs.
swooping for the kill,
with its focus on the prey,
down like a thunderbolt,
the prey was pierced by its great talons,
taking the meat to its nest
to feed its hungry chicks
(4)
Bulls charge at the sight of anything crimson
lowering its head and leaning its weight
to its forelimb
stirring dust behind its back
"I can only see the crimson", he say
"I am strong and big, Iwill crush it with my horns
no matter what it was and may happen"
(5)
Felines wait patiently for anything that moves
for hours they keep their eyes focus
undisturbed by physical necessities
and if they could see something is moving,
like the wind with no crack of twigs they approach
and with one mighty blow of its paw
down you rat, I'm so sorry,
but you would be my dinner for tonight.
.:the thing animals have in order to be able to survive in the wilds and harsh and unforgiving habitat. A virtue that had never been changed. A key for sustenance and insurance of survival of a specie. without such, Fauna could long had been extinct.
.:the animals had this impulse and its only one thing- that's for food.
(I speak as regards to myself)
I wish I could have such in attaining my goals and dreams and fulfilling my duty. I admit my heart was soft and this is the thing I lack. But it should be the thing I should have. It's not for my personal or selfish gain but for the fulfillment of my duty and my destiny. Anyway it's just for two years. Because after such time, I will be singing "Que sera,sera! Whatever will be, will be".
Thursday, August 7, 2008
For the Love of a Woman
To reach new heights
and go beyond my limits,
To go to places
I've never been before,
To do things
I'd never thought I could do,
To establish a ame
in the economic parlance,
To be on the top
of the Corporate ladder,
To attain gold
in the Olympiad,
To attain a success
that no one ever had attained before,
To extend my reach
beyond the clouds to the stars above,
To become what I never have had imagined
I will be,
To be looked upon with awe
yet maintaining a humble character,
All these things;
elusive as they may seem,
by any means necessary;
will I try to achieve
just for the love of a woman.
and go beyond my limits,
To go to places
I've never been before,
To do things
I'd never thought I could do,
To establish a ame
in the economic parlance,
To be on the top
of the Corporate ladder,
To attain gold
in the Olympiad,
To attain a success
that no one ever had attained before,
To extend my reach
beyond the clouds to the stars above,
To become what I never have had imagined
I will be,
To be looked upon with awe
yet maintaining a humble character,
All these things;
elusive as they may seem,
by any means necessary;
will I try to achieve
just for the love of a woman.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Rest for the Weary -Matthew 11:25-30
Matthew 11:25-30
(25)At that time Jesus said, "I praise you, Father, Lord of Heaven and Earth because you have hidden these things from the wise and learned, and arevealed them to little children.
(26)Yes, Father, for this was your good pleasure.
(27)"All things have been comitted to me by my Father, No one knows the Son except the Father, and no one knows the Father except the Son and those to whom the Son chooses to reveal Him.
(28)"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
(29)Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
(30)For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
(25)At that time Jesus said, "I praise you, Father, Lord of Heaven and Earth because you have hidden these things from the wise and learned, and arevealed them to little children.
(26)Yes, Father, for this was your good pleasure.
(27)"All things have been comitted to me by my Father, No one knows the Son except the Father, and no one knows the Father except the Son and those to whom the Son chooses to reveal Him.
(28)"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
(29)Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
(30)For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
Rain for Two Days
How art thou pour thy tears upon us
Oh! floating sponge of the heavens
When wilt thou empty thy vessel
and let the sun shines its glorious splendor
Art thou crying for us
for the fruition of what wrong we had done
We recklessly tried to k1ll the earth
where we called home
and exploit its riches of the ground
Were not satisfied with our fill of spoils
that maybe the reason why you pour out your tears upon us
That we may hear your words in the raindrops
and heed your teachings from the thunderbolt
But nothing is permanent in this world
After which you poured enough that your bossom will vanish
and nothing will hinder us in doing
our works that causes earth's decadence
Two days of rain is far enough
to fill the emptiness of our hearts
But the opposite happenned
We emptied our hearts and craved more
to fill ourselves with our self1sh desires
I beg thou oh rain not to stop
Fill our skies with darkness
and make our roads like raging rivers
that we may learn and be wise and grateful
Make us know that you meddle with the affairs of men
and your Creator be forever glorified
like you pour out your showers,
that we may also pour out love
from our hearts
Make us wonder of how you're made
and never failing to make us know
that thou O great rain
is our brother, our guardian
and emissary of the Most High
Oh! floating sponge of the heavens
When wilt thou empty thy vessel
and let the sun shines its glorious splendor
Art thou crying for us
for the fruition of what wrong we had done
We recklessly tried to k1ll the earth
where we called home
and exploit its riches of the ground
Were not satisfied with our fill of spoils
that maybe the reason why you pour out your tears upon us
That we may hear your words in the raindrops
and heed your teachings from the thunderbolt
But nothing is permanent in this world
After which you poured enough that your bossom will vanish
and nothing will hinder us in doing
our works that causes earth's decadence
Two days of rain is far enough
to fill the emptiness of our hearts
But the opposite happenned
We emptied our hearts and craved more
to fill ourselves with our self1sh desires
I beg thou oh rain not to stop
Fill our skies with darkness
and make our roads like raging rivers
that we may learn and be wise and grateful
Make us know that you meddle with the affairs of men
and your Creator be forever glorified
like you pour out your showers,
that we may also pour out love
from our hearts
Make us wonder of how you're made
and never failing to make us know
that thou O great rain
is our brother, our guardian
and emissary of the Most High
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
The Wise and Foolish Builders -Luke 6:46-49
(46)Why do you call me, 'Lord, Lord', and do not do what I say?
(47)I will show you what he is like who comes to me and hears my words and put them into practice.
(18)He is like a man building a house, who dug down deep and laid foundation on a rock. When flood came, the torrent struck that house but could not shake it, because it was well built.
(19)But the one who hears my words and does not put them into practice is like a man who built a house on the ground without a foundation. The moment the torrent struck that house, it collapsed and its destruction was complete.
(47)I will show you what he is like who comes to me and hears my words and put them into practice.
(18)He is like a man building a house, who dug down deep and laid foundation on a rock. When flood came, the torrent struck that house but could not shake it, because it was well built.
(19)But the one who hears my words and does not put them into practice is like a man who built a house on the ground without a foundation. The moment the torrent struck that house, it collapsed and its destruction was complete.
Struggling with Sin -Romans 7:7-25
Romans Chapter 7:
(7)What shall we say, then? Is the law sin? Certainly not! Indeed I would not have known what sin was except through the law. For I would not have known what c0veting really was if the law had not said. "Do not c0vet".
(8)But sin, seizing the opportunity afforded by the commandment, produces in me every kind of c0vetous des1re. For apart from law, sin is .
(9)Once I was alive apart from law; but when the commandment came, sin sprang to life and I died.
(10)I found that every commandment that was intended to bring life actually brought de@th.
(11) For sin, seizing the opportunity afforded by the commandment, dece1ved me, and through the commandment put me to de@th.
(12)So then, the law is holy, and the commandment is holy, righteous and good.
(13)Did that which is good, then, become de@th to me? By no means! But in order that sin might be recognnized as sin, it produced de@th in me through what was good, so that through the commandment sin might become utterly sinful.
(14)We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin.
(15)I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do, i do not do, but what I , I do.
(16)And if I do what I do not want to do, i agree that the law is good
(17)As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but is sin living in me.
(18)I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out.
(19)For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the ev1l I do not want to do -this is what I keep on doing.
(20)Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no loner I who do it, but sin living in me that does it.
(21)So I find this law at work: when I want to do good, ev1l is right there within me
(22)For in my inner being, I delight in God's law;
(23)But I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members.
(24)What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from the body of de@th?
(25)Thanks be to God, through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself in my mind am slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.
(7)What shall we say, then? Is the law sin? Certainly not! Indeed I would not have known what sin was except through the law. For I would not have known what c0veting really was if the law had not said. "Do not c0vet".
(8)But sin, seizing the opportunity afforded by the commandment, produces in me every kind of c0vetous des1re. For apart from law, sin is .
(9)Once I was alive apart from law; but when the commandment came, sin sprang to life and I died.
(10)I found that every commandment that was intended to bring life actually brought de@th.
(11) For sin, seizing the opportunity afforded by the commandment, dece1ved me, and through the commandment put me to de@th.
(12)So then, the law is holy, and the commandment is holy, righteous and good.
(13)Did that which is good, then, become de@th to me? By no means! But in order that sin might be recognnized as sin, it produced de@th in me through what was good, so that through the commandment sin might become utterly sinful.
(14)We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin.
(15)I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do, i do not do, but what I , I do.
(16)And if I do what I do not want to do, i agree that the law is good
(17)As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but is sin living in me.
(18)I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out.
(19)For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the ev1l I do not want to do -this is what I keep on doing.
(20)Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no loner I who do it, but sin living in me that does it.
(21)So I find this law at work: when I want to do good, ev1l is right there within me
(22)For in my inner being, I delight in God's law;
(23)But I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members.
(24)What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from the body of de@th?
(25)Thanks be to God, through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself in my mind am slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.
Monday, August 4, 2008
Boasting about Tommorrow -Proverbs 27:1
Proverbs 27:1
'Do not boast about tomorrow,
for you do not know
what a day may bring forth'
'Do not boast about tomorrow,
for you do not know
what a day may bring forth'
Rain and Tears
The sky is always crying
like my heart that's always breaking
Teardrops falls from the sky
and blood flow from my eyes
Raindrops slip through the atmosphere
and the wind scatters them into showers
My tears rarely cascade in my cheeks
cause they vanish in my eyes
Rain shrouded the sun and the blue sky
making the artists stop their sketch of the sunlight
Tears blurred my sight and my eyes closed
stopping my smile for a moment
The rain has no taste at all
no sweetness, sourness, salinity nor bitterness
But my tears tastes like salt
which means that the ocean were filled with tears of men
I do believe the rain cleans the air
returning the contaminants to the ground where it came from
And my tears cleaned by eyes
removing its specks and give me a lucid vision
The rain had been created to water the earth
to nourish the lands and to cool the air
While tears sprang out to show the feelings of joy
and gladness of the hearts of men.
-divine-eye
:I drafted this while I was sitting in my room watching the never-ending rain of the august monsoon.
like my heart that's always breaking
Teardrops falls from the sky
and blood flow from my eyes
Raindrops slip through the atmosphere
and the wind scatters them into showers
My tears rarely cascade in my cheeks
cause they vanish in my eyes
Rain shrouded the sun and the blue sky
making the artists stop their sketch of the sunlight
Tears blurred my sight and my eyes closed
stopping my smile for a moment
The rain has no taste at all
no sweetness, sourness, salinity nor bitterness
But my tears tastes like salt
which means that the ocean were filled with tears of men
I do believe the rain cleans the air
returning the contaminants to the ground where it came from
And my tears cleaned by eyes
removing its specks and give me a lucid vision
The rain had been created to water the earth
to nourish the lands and to cool the air
While tears sprang out to show the feelings of joy
and gladness of the hearts of men.
-divine-eye
:I drafted this while I was sitting in my room watching the never-ending rain of the august monsoon.
Sunday, August 3, 2008
About my Blog(1) - divine-eye.blogspot.com
-It's been two(2) months already since I registered this blog and starting to publish my blog postings. At first, I intend to create this so as for me to have a meanss of expressing my thoughts and emotion in order to unload myself of some non-sense and unproductive burdens. I myself ever since I was young really did have some visions which in one way or another, when I started to grow up, had made me insane or too much overwhelmed; anxious and eager and too much concern on something of no worth. One way of how I unloaden myself was to speak to an object ( I learned this technique when I watched an episode of ABS-CBNs fantasy series of Hiraya-manawari when I was just a kid) and to at least lesen my unknown burden. But now is what they called the "wi-fi" era wherin electronics and technology revolutionized the world and connecting people from all ends of the earth. But now, I mad this blog as a personal diary of mine, and indeed I was somehow able to relieve my self of intense emotion. As my rule-of-thumb, I should have at least two(2) blog postings for a day. However, when I don't have a drafted postings that I posted some qoutations from the Holy Bible to at least increase my knowledge and knowledge of those who read my blog about God's word. His love and His gift of salvation for all mankind.
til the I would end it here for a while.
susequent About my blogs would be posted out later.
yeah ga.
til the I would end it here for a while.
susequent About my blogs would be posted out later.
yeah ga.
Ecclesiastes 9:11
The race is not to the swift
or the battle to the strong,
Nor does food to the wise
or favor to the learned;
But time and chance happen to them all.
or the battle to the strong,
Nor does food to the wise
or favor to the learned;
But time and chance happen to them all.
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Job 33:14-18
For God does not speak- now one way, now another- though may not perceive it.
In a dream,
in a vision of the night,
when deep sleep falls on men as they slumber in their beds,
He may speak in their ears and terrify them with warnings,
to turn man from wrongdoing
and keep him from pride,
to preserve his soul from pit,
his life from perishing by the sword.
In a dream,
in a vision of the night,
when deep sleep falls on men as they slumber in their beds,
He may speak in their ears and terrify them with warnings,
to turn man from wrongdoing
and keep him from pride,
to preserve his soul from pit,
his life from perishing by the sword.
We are God's Creation -Job 10:8
A prayer in times of trouble and despair
Job 10:8
Your hands shaped me and made me. Will you now turn and destroy me?
Remember that you molded me like clay. Will you now turn me to dust again?
Did you not pour me out like milk and curdle me like cheese,
clothe me with skin and flesh and knit me together with bones and sinews?
You gave me life and showed me kindness, and your providence watched over my spirit.
Job 10:8
Your hands shaped me and made me. Will you now turn and destroy me?
Remember that you molded me like clay. Will you now turn me to dust again?
Did you not pour me out like milk and curdle me like cheese,
clothe me with skin and flesh and knit me together with bones and sinews?
You gave me life and showed me kindness, and your providence watched over my spirit.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
HAVE YOU BELEIVED ANOTHER GOSPEL?
FROM: Tract No. 149
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"Which is not another, but there be some that trouble you, and would p3rv3rt the gospel of Christ." (Gal 1:7).
Friend, have you been deceived into believing "another gospel?" The word "gospel" means glad tidings or good news. The apostle Paul says that this "other gospel" is not a gospel at all; because it does not truthfully present the good news of God's GRACE in His plan of eternal salvation for the souls of men. Out of a sincere concern for those souls, this tract was written to expose the "other gospel" by presenting the true gospel of Jesus Christ as explained by Paul.
"But I certify you brethren, that the gospel which was preached of me is not of man, For I neither received it of man, neither was I taught it, but by the revelation of Jesus Christ." (Gal 1:11,12)
"For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that CHRIST DIED FOR OUR SINS according to the scriptures; and that he was buried, and that he rose again the third day according to the scriptures" (I Cor 15:3,4)
Friend, maybe you consider yourself to be of some particular creed or religious faith, but the Bible says: "Examine yourselves, whether ye be in THE FAITH." (II Cor 13:15). Before you read any further examine yourself by His scriptures to determine whether you have believed the TRUE GOSPEL, or have been deceived by the "other gospel".
In Acts, chapter 20, Paul briefly reviews his teachings on the conditions of salvation when he says farewell to the elders of Ephesus.
"I kept back nothing that was profitable unto you, but have shewed you, and have taught you publicly, and from house to house, Testifying to the Jews, and also to the Greeks, REPENTANCE TOWARD GOD, and FAITH TOWARD OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST." (Acts 20:20,21)
EXAMINE YOURSELF!
REPENTANCE- a change of attitude about self toward God.
*Have I ever admitted to God that I was an unrighteous SINNER in His sight? YES_____NO_____
"As it is written, there is none righteous, no, not one." (Rom. 3:10)
"For ALL HAVE SINNED, and come short of the glory of God." (Rom.3:23)
*Have I ever realized that I cannot ESTABLISH MY OWN RIGHTEOUSNESS by getting baptized, keeping the law, or living a good life? YES_____NO_____
"What shall we say then? That the Gentiles, which followed not after righteousness, have attained righteousness, even the righteousness which is of faith. But Israel, which followed after the law of righteousness, hath not attained to the law of righteousness. Wherefore? Because they sought it not by faith, but as it were by the works of the law..." (Rom. 9:30-32)
"For they being ignorant of God's righteousness, and going about to ESTABLISH THEIR OWN RIGHTEOUSNESS, have not submitted themselves unto the righteousness of God." (Rom 10:3)
"Even the righteousness of God which is by FAITH of Jesus Christ unto all and upon all them that believe." (Rom 3:22)
EXAMINE YOURSELF!
FAITH- a complete confidence in Jesus Christ alone to save your soul.
*Have I ever claimed the PERFECT SACRIFICE of Jesus' d3ath as atonement (payment) for my sins? YES_____NO_____
" Christ hath redeemed us from the curse of the law, being made a curse for us: for it is written, Cursed is every one that hangeth on a tree." (Gal 3:13)
"But this man, after he had offered ONE SACRIFICE FOR SINS FOREVER, sat down on the right hand of God" (Heb 10:12)
*Am I PERSUADED that Jesus Christ has completely saved my soul from the judgement of a burning lake of fire, forever? YES_____NO_____
"...for I know whom I have believed, and am PERSUADED that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day." (II Tim. 1:12b)
"And being FULLY PERSUADED that, what he had promised, he was able also to perform." (Rom. 4:21)
"Therefore being justified by FAITH we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ." (Rom. 5:1)
Friend, if you couldn't answer "YES" to each of the previous questions; then you probably been deceived by the "other gospel" and are not in THE FAITH which Paul is talking about. You see, the "other gospel" teaches that you must "live right" in order to get saved or stay saved. It offers no real peace with God because you have to wait until to know if you have everlasting life or not. This is not faith in the perfect sacrifice of Jesus' on the cross. You are still trusting in yourself to ESTABLISH YOUR OWN RIGHTEOUSNESS. You cannot get saved by believing this other (false) gospel. Remember, the true gospel teaches that salvation is a gift from God for man, not a work from man for God.
"For by GRACE are ye saved through FAITH, and not of yourselves, it is the GIFT OF GOD, not of works, lest any man should boast." (Eph. 2:8,9)
"For if they are of the law be heirs, FAITH IS MADE VOID, and the promise made of none effect:... Therefore it is of FAITH, that it might be by GRACE." (Rom. 4:14,16A)
"And if by GRACE then is it no more of more of works, OTHERWISE GRACE IS NO MORE GRACE..." (Rom. 11:6)
Are you willing to believe the true GOSPEL OF GRACE? If so, with repentance and toward God and faith in Jesus, ask Him for the gift of everlasting life right now. The very moment you completely trust Jesus Christ as your saviour and Lord... that very moment...you are saved...forever!
"Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that hearth my word, and believeth on Him that sent me, HATH EVERLASTING LIFE, and shall not come into condemnation; but IS PASSED from unto life." (John 5:24).
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ALL TRACTS FREE AS THE LORD PROVIDES
"Which is not another, but there be some that trouble you, and would p3rv3rt the gospel of Christ." (Gal 1:7).
Friend, have you been deceived into believing "another gospel?" The word "gospel" means glad tidings or good news. The apostle Paul says that this "other gospel" is not a gospel at all; because it does not truthfully present the good news of God's GRACE in His plan of eternal salvation for the souls of men. Out of a sincere concern for those souls, this tract was written to expose the "other gospel" by presenting the true gospel of Jesus Christ as explained by Paul.
"But I certify you brethren, that the gospel which was preached of me is not of man, For I neither received it of man, neither was I taught it, but by the revelation of Jesus Christ." (Gal 1:11,12)
"For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that CHRIST DIED FOR OUR SINS according to the scriptures; and that he was buried, and that he rose again the third day according to the scriptures" (I Cor 15:3,4)
Friend, maybe you consider yourself to be of some particular creed or religious faith, but the Bible says: "Examine yourselves, whether ye be in THE FAITH." (II Cor 13:15). Before you read any further examine yourself by His scriptures to determine whether you have believed the TRUE GOSPEL, or have been deceived by the "other gospel".
In Acts, chapter 20, Paul briefly reviews his teachings on the conditions of salvation when he says farewell to the elders of Ephesus.
"I kept back nothing that was profitable unto you, but have shewed you, and have taught you publicly, and from house to house, Testifying to the Jews, and also to the Greeks, REPENTANCE TOWARD GOD, and FAITH TOWARD OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST." (Acts 20:20,21)
EXAMINE YOURSELF!
REPENTANCE- a change of attitude about self toward God.
*Have I ever admitted to God that I was an unrighteous SINNER in His sight? YES_____NO_____
"As it is written, there is none righteous, no, not one." (Rom. 3:10)
"For ALL HAVE SINNED, and come short of the glory of God." (Rom.3:23)
*Have I ever realized that I cannot ESTABLISH MY OWN RIGHTEOUSNESS by getting baptized, keeping the law, or living a good life? YES_____NO_____
"What shall we say then? That the Gentiles, which followed not after righteousness, have attained righteousness, even the righteousness which is of faith. But Israel, which followed after the law of righteousness, hath not attained to the law of righteousness. Wherefore? Because they sought it not by faith, but as it were by the works of the law..." (Rom. 9:30-32)
"For they being ignorant of God's righteousness, and going about to ESTABLISH THEIR OWN RIGHTEOUSNESS, have not submitted themselves unto the righteousness of God." (Rom 10:3)
"Even the righteousness of God which is by FAITH of Jesus Christ unto all and upon all them that believe." (Rom 3:22)
EXAMINE YOURSELF!
FAITH- a complete confidence in Jesus Christ alone to save your soul.
*Have I ever claimed the PERFECT SACRIFICE of Jesus' d3ath as atonement (payment) for my sins? YES_____NO_____
" Christ hath redeemed us from the curse of the law, being made a curse for us: for it is written, Cursed is every one that hangeth on a tree." (Gal 3:13)
"But this man, after he had offered ONE SACRIFICE FOR SINS FOREVER, sat down on the right hand of God" (Heb 10:12)
*Am I PERSUADED that Jesus Christ has completely saved my soul from the judgement of a burning lake of fire, forever? YES_____NO_____
"...for I know whom I have believed, and am PERSUADED that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day." (II Tim. 1:12b)
"And being FULLY PERSUADED that, what he had promised, he was able also to perform." (Rom. 4:21)
"Therefore being justified by FAITH we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ." (Rom. 5:1)
Friend, if you couldn't answer "YES" to each of the previous questions; then you probably been deceived by the "other gospel" and are not in THE FAITH which Paul is talking about. You see, the "other gospel" teaches that you must "live right" in order to get saved or stay saved. It offers no real peace with God because you have to wait until to know if you have everlasting life or not. This is not faith in the perfect sacrifice of Jesus' on the cross. You are still trusting in yourself to ESTABLISH YOUR OWN RIGHTEOUSNESS. You cannot get saved by believing this other (false) gospel. Remember, the true gospel teaches that salvation is a gift from God for man, not a work from man for God.
"For by GRACE are ye saved through FAITH, and not of yourselves, it is the GIFT OF GOD, not of works, lest any man should boast." (Eph. 2:8,9)
"For if they are of the law be heirs, FAITH IS MADE VOID, and the promise made of none effect:... Therefore it is of FAITH, that it might be by GRACE." (Rom. 4:14,16A)
"And if by GRACE then is it no more of more of works, OTHERWISE GRACE IS NO MORE GRACE..." (Rom. 11:6)
Are you willing to believe the true GOSPEL OF GRACE? If so, with repentance and toward God and faith in Jesus, ask Him for the gift of everlasting life right now. The very moment you completely trust Jesus Christ as your saviour and Lord... that very moment...you are saved...forever!
"Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that hearth my word, and believeth on Him that sent me, HATH EVERLASTING LIFE, and shall not come into condemnation; but IS PASSED from unto life." (John 5:24).
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
I'm too Overwhelmed
11:05 a.m. 29 July 2008
So much thought clashing in my mind, I couldn't help myself to concentrate to read my textbook. Why is it always like this? Every time I tried to make good things that fear and doubts would interfere. Thoughts are spinning in my mind right now and is making me crazy. I tried to just ignore and forget them but still, they just keep coming back again. Having a complete focus on my endeavor was always transient. After which, I'll became insane again. Too bad, seems like this was how life had to be for me and I should adapt myself to be used to it. I could not completely wake up to the reality and my waking hours with eyes wide open were just transient as a vapor. My resolution and my inspiration fade away too early before completing any work.
But my persistence is still intact. Regardless of anything, somehow, I was still able to survive these mental tides of life. I still hold on to my sail, persevering to reach the shore of destiny and fulfillment. I am trying so hard not to be led astray but to feel the mark on my shoulder (the mark of the strong).It is in this mark do I found my hope (I'll gonna have a post regarding my mark later).
Perhaps, only blogging aside from physical activity which requires exertion could make my mind stable and sane. My inspiration and willpower was weak. Only doing what I had to do and accomplishing such could I overcome my mind warfare.
So much thoughts to be verbalized supposed to be but my rule is just limited to a minimum of two entries for a particular day.
Could this mind freaking insanity be caused by an imbalance of hormone or just a symptom of an excessive or lack/minimal dose of brain chemicals. Or could this be because of an altered or blocked pathway of neuron to let brain chemicals flow or caused by an introduction of other substance.
But notwithstanding those reasons aforementioned and other more my mind could create afterwards, life is still a never ending battle and it continues to go on and nothing did ever changed, all that is under the sun.
So much thought clashing in my mind, I couldn't help myself to concentrate to read my textbook. Why is it always like this? Every time I tried to make good things that fear and doubts would interfere. Thoughts are spinning in my mind right now and is making me crazy. I tried to just ignore and forget them but still, they just keep coming back again. Having a complete focus on my endeavor was always transient. After which, I'll became insane again. Too bad, seems like this was how life had to be for me and I should adapt myself to be used to it. I could not completely wake up to the reality and my waking hours with eyes wide open were just transient as a vapor. My resolution and my inspiration fade away too early before completing any work.
But my persistence is still intact. Regardless of anything, somehow, I was still able to survive these mental tides of life. I still hold on to my sail, persevering to reach the shore of destiny and fulfillment. I am trying so hard not to be led astray but to feel the mark on my shoulder (the mark of the strong).It is in this mark do I found my hope (I'll gonna have a post regarding my mark later).
Perhaps, only blogging aside from physical activity which requires exertion could make my mind stable and sane. My inspiration and willpower was weak. Only doing what I had to do and accomplishing such could I overcome my mind warfare.
So much thoughts to be verbalized supposed to be but my rule is just limited to a minimum of two entries for a particular day.
Could this mind freaking insanity be caused by an imbalance of hormone or just a symptom of an excessive or lack/minimal dose of brain chemicals. Or could this be because of an altered or blocked pathway of neuron to let brain chemicals flow or caused by an introduction of other substance.
But notwithstanding those reasons aforementioned and other more my mind could create afterwards, life is still a never ending battle and it continues to go on and nothing did ever changed, all that is under the sun.
Worshipping Other gods -Deuteronomy 13
On worshipping other gods(Deuteronomy 13)
(1) If a particular, or one who foretells by dreams, appears among you and announces to you a miraculous sign or wonder,
(2)and if a sign or wonder of which he has spoken takes place, and he says, "Let us follow other gods" (gods you have not know)"and let us worship them,"
(3) you must not listen to the words of that prophet or dreamer. The Lord your God is testing you to find out whether you love Him with all your heart and with all your soul.
(4)It is th Lord your God you must follow, and Him you must revere. Keep his commands and obey Him; serve Him and hold fast to Him.
(5)That prophet or dreamer must be put to , because he preached rebellion against the Lord you God, who brought you out of Egypt and redeemed you from the land of slavery; He has tried to turn you from the way of the Lord your God commanded you to follow. You must purge the evil from among you.
(6)If your brother, or your son or daughter, or the wife you love, or your closest friend secretly entices you, saying, "Let us go and worship other gods (gods that neither your fathers have known,
(7) gods of peoples around you, whether near or far, from one end of the land to the other),
(8)do not yeild to him. Show no pity. Do not spare him or shield him.
(9) You must certainly put him to d3ath, and then the hands of the people.
(10)Stone him to d3ath, because he tried to turn you away from the Lord your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.
(11)Then all Israel eill hear and be afraid, and no one among you will do such an evil thing again.
(12)If you hear it said about one of the towns the Lord Your God is giving you to live in,
(13)that wicked men have arisen among you and have led the people of their town to be astray, saying, "Let us go and worship other gods"(gods you have not known),
(14)then you must inquire, probe and investigate it thoroughly. And if it is true and it has been proved that this detestable thing has been done among you,
(15) You must certainly put to the sword all who live in that town. Destroy it completely, both its people and its livestock.
(16)Gather all the plunder of the town into the public square and completely burn the town and all its plunder as a whole burnt offering to the Lord your God. It is to remain a ruin for ever, never to be rebuilt.
(17)None of those condemned things shall be foundin your hands, so that the Lord your God will turn from His fierce anger; He will show you mercy, have compassion on you, and increase your numbers, as He promised on oath to your forefathers,
(18)because you obey the Lord your God, keeping His commands that I am giving you today and doing what is right in his eyes
(1) If a particular, or one who foretells by dreams, appears among you and announces to you a miraculous sign or wonder,
(2)and if a sign or wonder of which he has spoken takes place, and he says, "Let us follow other gods" (gods you have not know)"and let us worship them,"
(3) you must not listen to the words of that prophet or dreamer. The Lord your God is testing you to find out whether you love Him with all your heart and with all your soul.
(4)It is th Lord your God you must follow, and Him you must revere. Keep his commands and obey Him; serve Him and hold fast to Him.
(5)That prophet or dreamer must be put to , because he preached rebellion against the Lord you God, who brought you out of Egypt and redeemed you from the land of slavery; He has tried to turn you from the way of the Lord your God commanded you to follow. You must purge the evil from among you.
(6)If your brother, or your son or daughter, or the wife you love, or your closest friend secretly entices you, saying, "Let us go and worship other gods (gods that neither your fathers have known,
(7) gods of peoples around you, whether near or far, from one end of the land to the other),
(8)do not yeild to him. Show no pity. Do not spare him or shield him.
(9) You must certainly put him to d3ath, and then the hands of the people.
(10)Stone him to d3ath, because he tried to turn you away from the Lord your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.
(11)Then all Israel eill hear and be afraid, and no one among you will do such an evil thing again.
(12)If you hear it said about one of the towns the Lord Your God is giving you to live in,
(13)that wicked men have arisen among you and have led the people of their town to be astray, saying, "Let us go and worship other gods"(gods you have not known),
(14)then you must inquire, probe and investigate it thoroughly. And if it is true and it has been proved that this detestable thing has been done among you,
(15) You must certainly put to the sword all who live in that town. Destroy it completely, both its people and its livestock.
(16)Gather all the plunder of the town into the public square and completely burn the town and all its plunder as a whole burnt offering to the Lord your God. It is to remain a ruin for ever, never to be rebuilt.
(17)None of those condemned things shall be foundin your hands, so that the Lord your God will turn from His fierce anger; He will show you mercy, have compassion on you, and increase your numbers, as He promised on oath to your forefathers,
(18)because you obey the Lord your God, keeping His commands that I am giving you today and doing what is right in his eyes
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Let's do Blogging
Sitting inside our classroom with nothing to do but wait for our instructor to come, with nothing in mind and no idea to ponder upon, and all I have was a notebook and a pen. Guess writing a draft of a blog entry was the only thing to be done. It's always been like this that here do I verbalize my feelings and other emotions relating to everyday life. Nothwithstanding whether someone will gonna read out this one. Good for me, I was able to escape from boredom and let my brain to work on words. At least I could relax for now for a while. No keyboard to play with and no music to listen to. Lucky am I, I have some way to have inner peace. Frustrations and disappointments, joy and gladness, I transform them into words and at least post them to my own blogsite- my self-owned and renowned wi-fi masterpiece. I'm not yet good at blogging actually. Although I know some know-how and procedures of HTML, what I know is still not yet sufficient to become an expert webmaster. Only if I would be good at SQL and Javascript, that I would be able to add some decorations and widgets and other applications to my humble blog like for example, a sudoku puzzle but as for me, my posts in an integral part and is an art in itself, a product of a great mind, creativity and ingenuity. I am just a novice to this kind of an exciting hobby but good thing I could be able to connect my thoughts to the world. Here some readers do can relate to me and the first time someone commented to a particular blog entry I had published, I felt an awesome sense of achievement, having been just a humble compilation of postings, thank God! someone do find a little interest to my entries. I would just hope that google would include my blog entries in their search engine and somehow, it would attract more readers and it would interest them to do blogging also.
-my blog is a mirror of myself in a cloaked and mysterious identity. ^,^
-my blog is a mirror of myself in a cloaked and mysterious identity. ^,^
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Overcoming Obstacles
Remember the high board at the swimming pool?
After days of looking up at it
you finally climbed the wet steps to the platform.
From there, it was higher than ever.
There were only two ways down:
-the steps to defeat or
-the dive to victory.
You stood on the edge,
shivering in the hot sun, de@thly afraid.
At last you leaned too far forward,
it was too late for retreat, and you dived.
The high board was conquered,
and you spent the rest of the day diving.
Climbing a thousand high boards,
we demolish fear, and turn into human beings
Richard Bach
-A gift of wings
After days of looking up at it
you finally climbed the wet steps to the platform.
From there, it was higher than ever.
There were only two ways down:
-the steps to defeat or
-the dive to victory.
You stood on the edge,
shivering in the hot sun, de@thly afraid.
At last you leaned too far forward,
it was too late for retreat, and you dived.
The high board was conquered,
and you spent the rest of the day diving.
Climbing a thousand high boards,
we demolish fear, and turn into human beings
Richard Bach
-A gift of wings
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Taking Chances
:a very interesting and inspiring story to ponder:
:this was regarding our doubts and the happy life we lose had we not been so procrastinated:
Children can sometimes teach us valuable lessons.
Once while on an outing to a nearby dam,
our three sons asked if they could dive off
a newly constructed bridge.
Their request was met with a definite NO.
Not only was a 13-foot drop to the water,
I pointed out, but there might be submerged obstacles
that could be a de@th trap.
However, my middle son was not convinced.
At his suggestion,
his older brother waded into the water
and surveyed the area where they wanted
to jump.
The depth of the water was fine,
as well as being clear of obstacles.
They had the times of their lives that afternoon.
I can't help relating that experience to everyday life.
How many opportunities have I missed because
I was blinded by "submerged obstacles"
that were probably never there in the first place?
-Paul Coetser
:this was regarding our doubts and the happy life we lose had we not been so procrastinated:
Children can sometimes teach us valuable lessons.
Once while on an outing to a nearby dam,
our three sons asked if they could dive off
a newly constructed bridge.
Their request was met with a definite NO.
Not only was a 13-foot drop to the water,
I pointed out, but there might be submerged obstacles
that could be a de@th trap.
However, my middle son was not convinced.
At his suggestion,
his older brother waded into the water
and surveyed the area where they wanted
to jump.
The depth of the water was fine,
as well as being clear of obstacles.
They had the times of their lives that afternoon.
I can't help relating that experience to everyday life.
How many opportunities have I missed because
I was blinded by "submerged obstacles"
that were probably never there in the first place?
-Paul Coetser
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ONLY JESUS
Rev. Jang Ji Man
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Hana Well Being President
Bishop Efraim Tendero
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Sunday, July 20, 2008
God and man - Job 4:12-17
Job 4:12-17
"A word was secretly brought to me, my ears caught up a whisper of it.
Amid disquieting dreams in the night, when deep sleep falls on men,
fear and trembling seized me and made all my bones shake.
A spirit guided past my face, and the hair on my body stood on end.
It stopped, but I could not tell what it was.
A form sttod my eyes and I heard a hushed voice:
CAN A MORTAL BE MORE RIGHTEOUS THAN GOD?
CAN MAN BE MORE THAN HIS MAKER?"
"A word was secretly brought to me, my ears caught up a whisper of it.
Amid disquieting dreams in the night, when deep sleep falls on men,
fear and trembling seized me and made all my bones shake.
A spirit guided past my face, and the hair on my body stood on end.
It stopped, but I could not tell what it was.
A form sttod my eyes and I heard a hushed voice:
CAN A MORTAL BE MORE RIGHTEOUS THAN GOD?
CAN MAN BE MORE THAN HIS MAKER?"
The Lord watches. -2 Chronicles 16:9
2 Chronicles 16:9
For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strenghten those whose hearts are fully committed to him
For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strenghten those whose hearts are fully committed to him
When it Rains, It pours - Heavy rain on a Sunday
20 July 2008 3:10 pm
I'm writin this while sitting on the building where UB gymnasium is. I was atanding for almost 30 minutes on the other side of Assumption street infront of the UB building where UB square was. I was standing at the Baguio cathedral minutes ago when it had started to rain heavily. The rain stopped for a while and I walked fast by the route which divides the SLU-LES and SLU Gonzaga building. I stopped by the stand because it has started to rain heavy. Too bad for me. The rain poured more than what I had imagined.. Showers nearly made my pants and my jacket almost wet inspite of being in a shelter. SO I made my choice and decided that I would run to the UB gym. SOme of my fellows who were in the stand ran to the building and subsequently, I followed next.
Earlier, I had a premonition that it would be going to rain. I could have gone to SM and will try to find a book on Managerial Accounting by Horngren but I didn't take heed. Instead, I continue to go to SLU but unfrtunately, It rained.
A wisdom had been learned and an insight had been noticed. Hope I'l keep it and relate such on whatever challenge that lies ahead of me. Thank God the rain's now starting to stop after a long wait and the sky begin to shed some light. Some clouds were now showing their bright color and some people were now walking on the streets. I'm still sitting and writing this guessing how to make an end to this entry. Drizzles were still falling and little by litle, it would stop soon and I could go. Four ladies on the table beside me didn't seemed to take notice of me and they wil think of some kind of a weirdo with a pen writing on a piece of paper. They just have a with each other as it is typical for women like them when they were together with each other. They were having "tsismis" about 's things and stuffs. But the rained had stopped already. Minutes from now and this entry would be posted to be read by millions around the world.
It's time to go.
_____________ end_______________
I'm writin this while sitting on the building where UB gymnasium is. I was atanding for almost 30 minutes on the other side of Assumption street infront of the UB building where UB square was. I was standing at the Baguio cathedral minutes ago when it had started to rain heavily. The rain stopped for a while and I walked fast by the route which divides the SLU-LES and SLU Gonzaga building. I stopped by the stand because it has started to rain heavy. Too bad for me. The rain poured more than what I had imagined.. Showers nearly made my pants and my jacket almost wet inspite of being in a shelter. SO I made my choice and decided that I would run to the UB gym. SOme of my fellows who were in the stand ran to the building and subsequently, I followed next.
Earlier, I had a premonition that it would be going to rain. I could have gone to SM and will try to find a book on Managerial Accounting by Horngren but I didn't take heed. Instead, I continue to go to SLU but unfrtunately, It rained.
A wisdom had been learned and an insight had been noticed. Hope I'l keep it and relate such on whatever challenge that lies ahead of me. Thank God the rain's now starting to stop after a long wait and the sky begin to shed some light. Some clouds were now showing their bright color and some people were now walking on the streets. I'm still sitting and writing this guessing how to make an end to this entry. Drizzles were still falling and little by litle, it would stop soon and I could go. Four ladies on the table beside me didn't seemed to take notice of me and they wil think of some kind of a weirdo with a pen writing on a piece of paper. They just have a with each other as it is typical for women like them when they were together with each other. They were having "tsismis" about 's things and stuffs. But the rained had stopped already. Minutes from now and this entry would be posted to be read by millions around the world.
It's time to go.
_____________ end_______________
Friday, July 18, 2008
Episode 72: Go West young Meowth
+++==>>>> I emphasized more on meowth's life and not on the detail of the episode. The story about mowth's past when he was in Hollywood, his love life, and other things which made him watched by us, fans around the world, as a villain and a team rocket member with Jessie and James who were always being thrown out in almost all the episodes I had watched.
this is actually my own version after watching the story. Hope readers would enjoy reading.
Reminiscing his past (the first time he was shown in the world. It was in his youngest so far( his earlier life had not been shown in the series of who were his parents and his earlier life). . He was starving for food, and cast out. He even tried to eat a bag of baseball balls. One night when he was caught up in a tree and tied upside down, he saw a movie showing owth having a nice time eating ice cream and fried chicken. He then sets his eyes on Hollywood, the land of stars and fame.
Arriving in Hollywood, he was very hungry and impoverished with nothing to eat and no one to help him. He'd break into a snack stand to steal a piece of chicken to satisfy his hunger. But the guy caught him, and he had a frying pan thrown at him. Knocking him down without the chicken, He struggled into the alley and was found by a group of street meowths and they gave them food.
He joined the gang and joined them in their stealing spree. His life was easy at that time, having friends and something to eat, until he encountered the turning point of his life. One day wile running and holding his food in his mouth on the street, he sees the meowth of his dreams and he immediately fell in love. It was love at first sight for our feline hero. He tried to cross the busy freeway to approach her on the other side of the street. He was nearly bumped by the approaching car but it stopped and caused a road with a queue of cars bumping each other. He approached her but she just ignored him having no interest on a dirty street meowth. Just a short time thereafter and her owner came by and called her "Meowsie" to take her on a diamond ornamented pokeball. Her eye and mouth were wide open at the sight of the pokeball and she joined her owner and they took off.
Seeing meowsies awe, Meowth then presupposed that in order to impress meowsie, he had to be like a human(speak like human and walk erect).
So he started by trying to stand straight. at first, he seemed to have a painstaking difficulty. But eventually, he had managed to stand erect and walk like human. He was erect from then on which made him slow as a consequence that the next time they were in their stealing spree, he was caught and suffered bruises, contusions and hematoma due to the cook's whip of his cooking pan and being thrown at him. But good thing for him, although sometimes he failed in their stealing mission, he was able to walk to impress meowsie. The next thing for him to do now was to be able to talk like human. Peeping from a hole in the ceiling of a room which was his hideout, he could see a small group of people practicing their eloquence skills. Meoth mimicked what they are saying until he was able to speak like them. He could speak like human but he could not understand what he is speaking meant. He got an alphabet book and tried to learn to read. It was shown in the episode that in his entire life, the word that he was able to understand the first time was the word "rocket". Had it not been the first word, he probably didn't join team rocket and there would be no villains in the series which will make it boring or possibly not in existence however such instances would be in the discretion of the maker of the series. Eventually he could now speak up like human. He was impressed by his mettle. He was now more than ready to meet meowsie again to show her newly learned human-like skills but unfortunately for him, he was spurned and rejected. She thought of him being a freak. Standing and talking only made her like him less and she said that he could never provide what her owner had given her. Depressed and frustrated having been rejected despite his hardships and toils. HE THEN VOWED TO BECOME RICHER AND BETTER THAN WHO SHE EVER WAS then SET OFF TO BECOME THE RICHEST, MOST POWERFUL FREAK SHE HAD EVER SEEN and joined team rocket.
After such a long time, he, together with his team returned to Hollywood and he decided to take a walk alone reminiscing the place and other things of his past.
He met his former comrades who was led by a persian and he asked him out if he could return to the gang again because he could be of help, being able to walk and talk like human. He replied not to stay until he discovered that meowsie was with them.
He talked to her and she told him her story that her trainer could not afford to have her and left her alone and was found by the gang and joined them. Meowth then tried to take her and jumped to clear out the way but the gang was not letting her go without a fight. Jessie and James came to the rescue and a battle commenced until it came to a part that meowth confronts the persian into a one-on-one fight which will decide if he would take meowsie. They jumped to each other and Meowth wins. Expecting to be approached by Meowsie, he eagerly meowsie to tend him but the opposite happened, meowsie tended the persian. At his disbelief he freezes and meowsie told her that it would be improper for her to just leave the persian after what he had done to help her when she was all alone and besides, meowth is still a freak.
Later that night, meowth was on a roof watching the full moon upset wondering why meowsie still soesn't like him. He wonders if meowsie is watching the moon too.
__________end of the story___________
actually this episode struck me most in all i had watched concerning love.
this episode indeed has a congruence with my love life
I'll gonna write down my comment on this later.
thank you... (^_^)
this is actually my own version after watching the story. Hope readers would enjoy reading.
Reminiscing his past (the first time he was shown in the world. It was in his youngest so far( his earlier life had not been shown in the series of who were his parents and his earlier life). . He was starving for food, and cast out. He even tried to eat a bag of baseball balls. One night when he was caught up in a tree and tied upside down, he saw a movie showing owth having a nice time eating ice cream and fried chicken. He then sets his eyes on Hollywood, the land of stars and fame.
Arriving in Hollywood, he was very hungry and impoverished with nothing to eat and no one to help him. He'd break into a snack stand to steal a piece of chicken to satisfy his hunger. But the guy caught him, and he had a frying pan thrown at him. Knocking him down without the chicken, He struggled into the alley and was found by a group of street meowths and they gave them food.
He joined the gang and joined them in their stealing spree. His life was easy at that time, having friends and something to eat, until he encountered the turning point of his life. One day wile running and holding his food in his mouth on the street, he sees the meowth of his dreams and he immediately fell in love. It was love at first sight for our feline hero. He tried to cross the busy freeway to approach her on the other side of the street. He was nearly bumped by the approaching car but it stopped and caused a road with a queue of cars bumping each other. He approached her but she just ignored him having no interest on a dirty street meowth. Just a short time thereafter and her owner came by and called her "Meowsie" to take her on a diamond ornamented pokeball. Her eye and mouth were wide open at the sight of the pokeball and she joined her owner and they took off.
Seeing meowsies awe, Meowth then presupposed that in order to impress meowsie, he had to be like a human(speak like human and walk erect).
So he started by trying to stand straight. at first, he seemed to have a painstaking difficulty. But eventually, he had managed to stand erect and walk like human. He was erect from then on which made him slow as a consequence that the next time they were in their stealing spree, he was caught and suffered bruises, contusions and hematoma due to the cook's whip of his cooking pan and being thrown at him. But good thing for him, although sometimes he failed in their stealing mission, he was able to walk to impress meowsie. The next thing for him to do now was to be able to talk like human. Peeping from a hole in the ceiling of a room which was his hideout, he could see a small group of people practicing their eloquence skills. Meoth mimicked what they are saying until he was able to speak like them. He could speak like human but he could not understand what he is speaking meant. He got an alphabet book and tried to learn to read. It was shown in the episode that in his entire life, the word that he was able to understand the first time was the word "rocket". Had it not been the first word, he probably didn't join team rocket and there would be no villains in the series which will make it boring or possibly not in existence however such instances would be in the discretion of the maker of the series. Eventually he could now speak up like human. He was impressed by his mettle. He was now more than ready to meet meowsie again to show her newly learned human-like skills but unfortunately for him, he was spurned and rejected. She thought of him being a freak. Standing and talking only made her like him less and she said that he could never provide what her owner had given her. Depressed and frustrated having been rejected despite his hardships and toils. HE THEN VOWED TO BECOME RICHER AND BETTER THAN WHO SHE EVER WAS then SET OFF TO BECOME THE RICHEST, MOST POWERFUL FREAK SHE HAD EVER SEEN and joined team rocket.
After such a long time, he, together with his team returned to Hollywood and he decided to take a walk alone reminiscing the place and other things of his past.
He met his former comrades who was led by a persian and he asked him out if he could return to the gang again because he could be of help, being able to walk and talk like human. He replied not to stay until he discovered that meowsie was with them.
He talked to her and she told him her story that her trainer could not afford to have her and left her alone and was found by the gang and joined them. Meowth then tried to take her and jumped to clear out the way but the gang was not letting her go without a fight. Jessie and James came to the rescue and a battle commenced until it came to a part that meowth confronts the persian into a one-on-one fight which will decide if he would take meowsie. They jumped to each other and Meowth wins. Expecting to be approached by Meowsie, he eagerly meowsie to tend him but the opposite happened, meowsie tended the persian. At his disbelief he freezes and meowsie told her that it would be improper for her to just leave the persian after what he had done to help her when she was all alone and besides, meowth is still a freak.
Later that night, meowth was on a roof watching the full moon upset wondering why meowsie still soesn't like him. He wonders if meowsie is watching the moon too.
__________end of the story___________
actually this episode struck me most in all i had watched concerning love.
this episode indeed has a congruence with my love life
I'll gonna write down my comment on this later.
thank you... (^_^)
On Waiting
They say that the hardest of all the works that befalls on man is no other that to wait.
Waiting for something,
Waiting for someone
or waiting for what destiny
or the twist and turns of fate
might give.
Waiting for fruits of labor,
Waiting for the spring to come forth
for the rebirth of the earth
after a harsh and cold winter
and waiting for the emergence
of the mayfly or June beetle
after their subterranean sleep in the ground
to take sight of the light
and to lay their new eggs for new life
to continue their life cycle
Waiting anxiously for the news of the battle
by those left by the valiant warriors
who prayed for their safe return home
Waiting for the result of the examination
a student undertook that would give tittle to him
on his would-be career and endeavor
Waiting eagerly for Christ's second coming
to establish anew Jerusalem on earth,
the Kingdom that would endure forever
where our tears and fears would be wiped
and many other things under the dome of heaven
and beyond the heavens above
that are worth waiting
or just an object of skepticism.
We humans became so impatient and our eagerness and appreciation for the things we kept on waiting, when they are already at hand seemed to be gone. Our interest vanished. We become now so immersed with ourselves and our focus has been diverted to what would only benefit ourself. We now carve for physical/material things which just satisfy our senses but emptied our hearts and turned to lose our prudence and emphaty for others.
But when things came that obstruct us and became an impediment for us, we tend to become hot-tempered and begin to say blasphemous things which in fact and in truth, we do not have right. The more we would become rebellious then and sometimes, due to our nonsense obsession, we would plunge ourselves to the river of destruction or wish to take our very own life (as a result of frustrations and severe depression) whi its inception, no one is allowed to. But just a little wisdom and we would turn our waiting nightmare into something righteous and just and for our own benefit and the benefit and the welfare of the people around us. Just by reading the holy Bible that says: "That everything works for the good of those who love God. And I think this works for everyone, Believers and unbelievers. There's a reason for everything even in waitng. It is in waiting that we have the time exclusively for ourselves and we would rather use it to self-reflect and meditate or just do the things we the most which are really necessary to be accomplished. It is when we do something good in our waiting hours that it will come to our knowledge that we didn't wait at all and we will tend to have to end the day having a great sense of fulfillment having utilized our time and what we are capable of doing to its optimum. That we have no regret for the things unaccomplished and a sense of guilt for being idle but instead, we rather thank God for the day He has given us. And sooner or later, your work would surely yield fruits at the time you do not expect and rewards which are great, a reward you never had imagined.
Waiting for something,
Waiting for someone
or waiting for what destiny
or the twist and turns of fate
might give.
Waiting for fruits of labor,
Waiting for the spring to come forth
for the rebirth of the earth
after a harsh and cold winter
and waiting for the emergence
of the mayfly or June beetle
after their subterranean sleep in the ground
to take sight of the light
and to lay their new eggs for new life
to continue their life cycle
Waiting anxiously for the news of the battle
by those left by the valiant warriors
who prayed for their safe return home
Waiting for the result of the examination
a student undertook that would give tittle to him
on his would-be career and endeavor
Waiting eagerly for Christ's second coming
to establish anew Jerusalem on earth,
the Kingdom that would endure forever
where our tears and fears would be wiped
and many other things under the dome of heaven
and beyond the heavens above
that are worth waiting
or just an object of skepticism.
We humans became so impatient and our eagerness and appreciation for the things we kept on waiting, when they are already at hand seemed to be gone. Our interest vanished. We become now so immersed with ourselves and our focus has been diverted to what would only benefit ourself. We now carve for physical/material things which just satisfy our senses but emptied our hearts and turned to lose our prudence and emphaty for others.
But when things came that obstruct us and became an impediment for us, we tend to become hot-tempered and begin to say blasphemous things which in fact and in truth, we do not have right. The more we would become rebellious then and sometimes, due to our nonsense obsession, we would plunge ourselves to the river of destruction or wish to take our very own life (as a result of frustrations and severe depression) whi its inception, no one is allowed to. But just a little wisdom and we would turn our waiting nightmare into something righteous and just and for our own benefit and the benefit and the welfare of the people around us. Just by reading the holy Bible that says: "That everything works for the good of those who love God. And I think this works for everyone, Believers and unbelievers. There's a reason for everything even in waitng. It is in waiting that we have the time exclusively for ourselves and we would rather use it to self-reflect and meditate or just do the things we the most which are really necessary to be accomplished. It is when we do something good in our waiting hours that it will come to our knowledge that we didn't wait at all and we will tend to have to end the day having a great sense of fulfillment having utilized our time and what we are capable of doing to its optimum. That we have no regret for the things unaccomplished and a sense of guilt for being idle but instead, we rather thank God for the day He has given us. And sooner or later, your work would surely yield fruits at the time you do not expect and rewards which are great, a reward you never had imagined.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
I must do it, I have no choice
I have already lived a quarter of my life and still, it seems as if nothing has changed. The same person I am before, a coward and a daydreamer still. Should I be like this forever? NO. Agreat time for a great leap has come already and its right in front of my doors. I must have to take it or else, the greatest regret of my life would be due to my own cowardice and procrastination having declined the greatest opportunity to undertake. Ever since I was young, I have a dream which I know would be for my own good but how come did I still remain a failure and a humiliation for myself. A question always startling my mind. Am I born a loser? Is fate harsh with me? or just I took no action to achieve such. Yes, God had provided everything for me having gifts and love and support of people around me who sees me as someone else, someone worthy of something. Should I fail them, should I fail myself and become nothing else but seen as a failure and object of pity?
But a choice had to be made by me. YES, I'll gonna make my final choice. To do what I must do. No matter what's the cost and consequences of such. No matter how bad I am in the past and what lies ahead of me. Other peoples' expectations, my dreams and goal and ambitions and the childhood trauma of me and my siblings and the demands of life, i must took it all alone upon myself. I must really had to make this ultimate sacrifice even to the extent of k1ll1ng my sense of self. For the sake of other peoples' expectations on me and ROna's ideal man, I'll do it all for them even making my emotions d3ad and dishonoring myself.
For the goal, for everyone, for everything,
I WILL NOT FAIL. I WILL WIN
MAy God help me and light my way.
But a choice had to be made by me. YES, I'll gonna make my final choice. To do what I must do. No matter what's the cost and consequences of such. No matter how bad I am in the past and what lies ahead of me. Other peoples' expectations, my dreams and goal and ambitions and the childhood trauma of me and my siblings and the demands of life, i must took it all alone upon myself. I must really had to make this ultimate sacrifice even to the extent of k1ll1ng my sense of self. For the sake of other peoples' expectations on me and ROna's ideal man, I'll do it all for them even making my emotions d3ad and dishonoring myself.
For the goal, for everyone, for everything,
I WILL NOT FAIL. I WILL WIN
MAy God help me and light my way.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
On a Cold Night of July
Saturday July 12, 2008 11:32 pm
It’s cold and the wind breeze that’s letting in our window was so chilling. After reading magazines and articles, I was still awake and am writing this on a draft.Seems like everyone is aslept at this point in time since it’s near midnight. Just a thought that I’ll write a blog entry because of a cold feeling of my left triceps having goosebumps. It’s just a cold night but I am too sleepy to rise up(I’m lying writing this on my bed) to watch the wide oopen spangled heaven to see some constellations or would I not see clouds or would I see nothing else but pure darkness because it’s not yet full moon. Perhaps I’ll riseup later after I finish this and arrange my things and e outside. It’s a Saturday night and I could have a sleepless night with nothing to worry about tomorrow. But it’s really cold and I am now sleepy. HA Ha HA!! The title might have making this to be presupposed as a poem or an essay, but it’s just a haphazard thought which just pop-out of my mind.(^,^).
It’s cold and the wind breeze that’s letting in our window was so chilling. After reading magazines and articles, I was still awake and am writing this on a draft.Seems like everyone is aslept at this point in time since it’s near midnight. Just a thought that I’ll write a blog entry because of a cold feeling of my left triceps having goosebumps. It’s just a cold night but I am too sleepy to rise up(I’m lying writing this on my bed) to watch the wide oopen spangled heaven to see some constellations or would I not see clouds or would I see nothing else but pure darkness because it’s not yet full moon. Perhaps I’ll riseup later after I finish this and arrange my things and e outside. It’s a Saturday night and I could have a sleepless night with nothing to worry about tomorrow. But it’s really cold and I am now sleepy. HA Ha HA!! The title might have making this to be presupposed as a poem or an essay, but it’s just a haphazard thought which just pop-out of my mind.(^,^).
Take me places I never know
2nd to the last stanza of the song " I'll do anything for love" by Meatloaf.
:"...will you take me places I never know?.."
Boy:".. I can do that, oh oh Now, I can do that."
Here the is asking the boy if the boy can take her to places she haven't gone before, cater to her every and to fill herself with love every moment of her life. The boy, desperately or passionately answered that he is indeed able.
As for me, this time, the reverse is imminent. Instead of the , taken to her unknown places, it's I who was taken by myself to places, feats and heights of intelligence where I've never been before all just because of her. Just a thought of her and I would push myself beyond the limits of what I aforethought. It's an amazing thing that's beyond my comprehension. Such had never been happened before and I am very happy for it.Puppy-love it may be, but how could I consider it as such if such was very hard for my reason to comprehend and was clearly evidenced by the words of my hand and was symbolized physically. The feeling was avapor which could not be touched but its ember rekindled my passion and makes my body moved and makes my dream for her materialized. It's not a puppy-love but something beyond that. I think it's an inspiration. YES! She was an inspiration for me. She was the reason why I am to where I am now this very day which I've had never thought of when I was young and so ambitious.She's the reason and driving force for me not to give up the fight but to dace my fears and to do my very best despite of insurmountable adversaries hoping that soon, when I will have just even a little prestige that we will be reunited and I'll tell her that I love her very much. Such would be the farthest place ever for me to be but who knows?, what we might be thinking would not happen exactly as it is planned but as a surprise later on in the future and will come by unexpectedly. Even then, we were travelling our own roads and encountering new interesting things along the way that we never ever had known nor encounter before.
"Love do makes us leap"
:"...will you take me places I never know?.."
Boy:".. I can do that, oh oh Now, I can do that."
Here the is asking the boy if the boy can take her to places she haven't gone before, cater to her every and to fill herself with love every moment of her life. The boy, desperately or passionately answered that he is indeed able.
As for me, this time, the reverse is imminent. Instead of the , taken to her unknown places, it's I who was taken by myself to places, feats and heights of intelligence where I've never been before all just because of her. Just a thought of her and I would push myself beyond the limits of what I aforethought. It's an amazing thing that's beyond my comprehension. Such had never been happened before and I am very happy for it.Puppy-love it may be, but how could I consider it as such if such was very hard for my reason to comprehend and was clearly evidenced by the words of my hand and was symbolized physically. The feeling was avapor which could not be touched but its ember rekindled my passion and makes my body moved and makes my dream for her materialized. It's not a puppy-love but something beyond that. I think it's an inspiration. YES! She was an inspiration for me. She was the reason why I am to where I am now this very day which I've had never thought of when I was young and so ambitious.She's the reason and driving force for me not to give up the fight but to dace my fears and to do my very best despite of insurmountable adversaries hoping that soon, when I will have just even a little prestige that we will be reunited and I'll tell her that I love her very much. Such would be the farthest place ever for me to be but who knows?, what we might be thinking would not happen exactly as it is planned but as a surprise later on in the future and will come by unexpectedly. Even then, we were travelling our own roads and encountering new interesting things along the way that we never ever had known nor encounter before.
"Love do makes us leap"
Thursday, July 10, 2008
The Sun is still high
08 July 2008
It's been 4 o'clock and the sun is still high in the western sky as i watched it shrouded by clouds at our room s402 Diego Silang building of Saint Louis University.
IT had rained already yesterday and it's been expected that it would be warm and sunny this day. It's been perplexing for me since its only now did I perceive that such had happened and i'm seeing it now with my own eyes. The sun is 45 degrees above me. Perhaps because I expected the month of July to be a monsoon season when typhoons hit the country in a consecutive fashion. unlike when its been the first time i am in baguio that almost for a month and it's stil raining with no typhoon. the typhoons usually hit the country during the month of November.
But then, life must still go on. we cannot change the weather or climate or anything that falls on us. we should adapt to the situation since God has given us gifts, and wisdom, we should use them to their full potential so us to save ourselves and others into falling into the pit. Just like what king Solomon had said that nothings new under the sun and such had happend already before. Let's just do what we have to do today while we can still do it. I think it's really summer and let's rejoice and thank God while it's still a clear day.
It's been 4 o'clock and the sun is still high in the western sky as i watched it shrouded by clouds at our room s402 Diego Silang building of Saint Louis University.
IT had rained already yesterday and it's been expected that it would be warm and sunny this day. It's been perplexing for me since its only now did I perceive that such had happened and i'm seeing it now with my own eyes. The sun is 45 degrees above me. Perhaps because I expected the month of July to be a monsoon season when typhoons hit the country in a consecutive fashion. unlike when its been the first time i am in baguio that almost for a month and it's stil raining with no typhoon. the typhoons usually hit the country during the month of November.
But then, life must still go on. we cannot change the weather or climate or anything that falls on us. we should adapt to the situation since God has given us gifts, and wisdom, we should use them to their full potential so us to save ourselves and others into falling into the pit. Just like what king Solomon had said that nothings new under the sun and such had happend already before. Let's just do what we have to do today while we can still do it. I think it's really summer and let's rejoice and thank God while it's still a clear day.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
2 Chronicles 16:9
"For the eys of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to Him"
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Saul seeks counsel in his last battle but none came
1 Samuel 28:15
" The Philistines are fighting against me,
and God has turned away from me.
He no longer answers me,
either by prophets or by dreams...."
" The Philistines are fighting against me,
and God has turned away from me.
He no longer answers me,
either by prophets or by dreams...."
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Man's Duty
Ecclesiastes 12:13
"Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter!
Fear God and keep His commandments, for this is the whole duty of man."
This i have read in an old bible last summer.
and during such time that i am wandering in my life aimlessly and having no final direction to go. i was just following my necessities and my ambitions were just transient. after reading this, my life's questions were now clear to me.
where would we go after death and what fuels us in doing our daily chores. before its in accordance with my selfish desires but when i read the text, i was relieved and decided to make my life a worthwhile life. without worrying of anything and to put our fears to Jesus and just let him take good care of us as our saviour and loving Lord.
"Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter!
Fear God and keep His commandments, for this is the whole duty of man."
This i have read in an old bible last summer.
and during such time that i am wandering in my life aimlessly and having no final direction to go. i was just following my necessities and my ambitions were just transient. after reading this, my life's questions were now clear to me.
where would we go after death and what fuels us in doing our daily chores. before its in accordance with my selfish desires but when i read the text, i was relieved and decided to make my life a worthwhile life. without worrying of anything and to put our fears to Jesus and just let him take good care of us as our saviour and loving Lord.
Friday, July 4, 2008
Live for More for You
>>>>this poem i wrote last May when i was experiencing some mental turbulence. I thought i was going insane to the point that i would want to k1ll or commit su1c1de. nevertheless, i just let out my insanity reppressed by writing this poem. thanks to her that i was able to gain my sanity somehow.<<<<<
It's been the same everyday,
the burden I have since infancy
is still troubling me each day
This illness on my mind, when will it end
Or will I say, this very life of mine will I end
Some days i'm high
and some days i'm low
some days i'm like god
and some days i don't know
The world adds trouble
or should i die that there'll be
no more trouble
I've been saved a thousand d3ath
and big thanks to her
She came to my life
and everything becomes sublime
She was the star that lights me
in a lonely night
and a lighthouse
that guides my voyage
in the tempest of the sea
How wonderful it is,
the first time i met her
I more desired to live more
than i had wanted to d1e
Indeed the world has no meaning
but colours and beauty did now i see
I can see her in the rising
of the sun at dawn
I can see her face
when i'm doing my daily chores
And all I could do is
to remember the very sweet smile of hers
as i lay to my bed
at night
But fate was so rough for me
were now made separate
and i can see no hope of her coming back
my morning star, now's gone
Just like before, now i'm suffering again
because of my insanity
this very insanity that i h@te
it's k1ll1nG me
i'm now planning again and again
to take my life
But never will it happen,
though we may be apart,
were one in my heart
I would d1e for her
but never would i d1e
for myself
I would rather live in pain
with me thinking of you
then d1e and d1e with my love for you.
>>>>>a poem i'd want to share to my fellows who were suffering bipolar disorders or any other mental related illness.
the cure for this curse is to fall in love.
Faith, Hope and Love were some good things He gaved us through His Son, Jesus
But the Greatest is Love.<<<<<
regards,
It's been the same everyday,
the burden I have since infancy
is still troubling me each day
This illness on my mind, when will it end
Or will I say, this very life of mine will I end
Some days i'm high
and some days i'm low
some days i'm like god
and some days i don't know
The world adds trouble
or should i die that there'll be
no more trouble
I've been saved a thousand d3ath
and big thanks to her
She came to my life
and everything becomes sublime
She was the star that lights me
in a lonely night
and a lighthouse
that guides my voyage
in the tempest of the sea
How wonderful it is,
the first time i met her
I more desired to live more
than i had wanted to d1e
Indeed the world has no meaning
but colours and beauty did now i see
I can see her in the rising
of the sun at dawn
I can see her face
when i'm doing my daily chores
And all I could do is
to remember the very sweet smile of hers
as i lay to my bed
at night
But fate was so rough for me
were now made separate
and i can see no hope of her coming back
my morning star, now's gone
Just like before, now i'm suffering again
because of my insanity
this very insanity that i h@te
it's k1ll1nG me
i'm now planning again and again
to take my life
But never will it happen,
though we may be apart,
were one in my heart
I would d1e for her
but never would i d1e
for myself
I would rather live in pain
with me thinking of you
then d1e and d1e with my love for you.
>>>>>a poem i'd want to share to my fellows who were suffering bipolar disorders or any other mental related illness.
the cure for this curse is to fall in love.
Faith, Hope and Love were some good things He gaved us through His Son, Jesus
But the Greatest is Love.<<<<<
regards,
Thursday, July 3, 2008
The Hottest Day in Baguio
July 2, 2008
I am writing this for yesterday, July 1, wherein, in all my life here in Baguio that I felt it at its hottest temperature.
It was yesterday, July 1 at 8:23 in the evening, when i was aboard in a jeep going home that I was premeditating to write down this one to my blog. I choose to ride at the back of driver's seat so as to let air from the front cool me down. It was in that day when I can feel that the temperature around me was dry and warm. No gentle breeze or some kinda windy stuff.I've gone to "wagwagan " or "ukay-ukay" centers where peole buy surplus goods and accessories to canvass where could I buy gogles.Yes, there were some who have gogles in their inventory displays but they just don't fit my taste.I'm looking for speedo or arena brand gogles that competitive swimmers use and not just an ordinary children's gogles. I go to the library of SLU (5th floor of Charles Vath building) to review my lessons in accounting 303. I sat down to cooldown myself for a while and stretch my legs. I removed my jacket but I can observe that only a minimum degrees Celcius of what i feel was reduced. I ignore it, I just continue reading. I go to our class and the temperature didn't change at all. The sun's rays was directly hitting me but I still didn't remove my jacket. I just didn't make any movements sos as to maintain my temperature. My seatmate even removed her jacket and used paper to fan herself. My seatmate on my left side used the curatains to shade us and WES, i colled down abit somehow. Nest class, the temperature colled down a bit. my last class, the temperature was the same to that of the second. I was now on a jeepney going home and can't help but wonder that it was as if the hottest and driest experience in my life in Baguio city. I theorizes that it was because of a low humidity in the atmosphere. The air was really dry. maybe because of the so called global warming that transformed Baguio city ( the summer capital of the Philippines where pinetrees and moss were abundant and the resinous scent of pines could be smelled making you feel like you are in a cool ecstacy. And the mist that once covered its hills and its overflowing streams with its waters white and clear. where smoke of burning pine was its perfume. But now, those things were just reduced to memories or dreams that you've seen in the night you're aslept and then woke up and could not go back to it anymore. Poor BAguio!)
If only it were full of trees, then they could had been the insulator but the central business district doesn't even have one.
no legacy for the generations to come.
I am writing this for yesterday, July 1, wherein, in all my life here in Baguio that I felt it at its hottest temperature.
It was yesterday, July 1 at 8:23 in the evening, when i was aboard in a jeep going home that I was premeditating to write down this one to my blog. I choose to ride at the back of driver's seat so as to let air from the front cool me down. It was in that day when I can feel that the temperature around me was dry and warm. No gentle breeze or some kinda windy stuff.I've gone to "wagwagan " or "ukay-ukay" centers where peole buy surplus goods and accessories to canvass where could I buy gogles.Yes, there were some who have gogles in their inventory displays but they just don't fit my taste.I'm looking for speedo or arena brand gogles that competitive swimmers use and not just an ordinary children's gogles. I go to the library of SLU (5th floor of Charles Vath building) to review my lessons in accounting 303. I sat down to cooldown myself for a while and stretch my legs. I removed my jacket but I can observe that only a minimum degrees Celcius of what i feel was reduced. I ignore it, I just continue reading. I go to our class and the temperature didn't change at all. The sun's rays was directly hitting me but I still didn't remove my jacket. I just didn't make any movements sos as to maintain my temperature. My seatmate even removed her jacket and used paper to fan herself. My seatmate on my left side used the curatains to shade us and WES, i colled down abit somehow. Nest class, the temperature colled down a bit. my last class, the temperature was the same to that of the second. I was now on a jeepney going home and can't help but wonder that it was as if the hottest and driest experience in my life in Baguio city. I theorizes that it was because of a low humidity in the atmosphere. The air was really dry. maybe because of the so called global warming that transformed Baguio city ( the summer capital of the Philippines where pinetrees and moss were abundant and the resinous scent of pines could be smelled making you feel like you are in a cool ecstacy. And the mist that once covered its hills and its overflowing streams with its waters white and clear. where smoke of burning pine was its perfume. But now, those things were just reduced to memories or dreams that you've seen in the night you're aslept and then woke up and could not go back to it anymore. Poor BAguio!)
If only it were full of trees, then they could had been the insulator but the central business district doesn't even have one.
no legacy for the generations to come.
Monday, June 30, 2008
The Modern/Present World Degenerating
Recently, my team mate had shown a video in her cellphone of an of a cadaver. They said it stinks and some even told a story that her sister taking up MedTech had experience of such thing. they say its horrible. but for some of us, its okay since they are just butchering a corpse and the person was . It was not a first time for me to see such thing. Actually, the first time that i had encountered such was when I'm 17 years old. I bought a tabloid(a o tabloid) and had seen in its front page the processes of @borti0n. i was really shocked at that time. although i had a strong but seeing such, the immorality of which makes me stomach sick and i haven't have had an appetite for 3 days. its there that I've seen a foetus expelled from the mother's body . its eyes were blue and had an face. the mother was full of flowing from her down into her legs. after the foetus had been expelled, the mother of the child had just thrown the baby in the garbage can beside the bowl and wiped her body and face then see herself in the mirror and put on some lipstick as if nothing horrible had happened and just leave the restroom and hurried her way. i think the woman was a pr0st1tut3. ever since that day, i was traumatized and wish not to see such immoral thing again. i surf 0gr1sh.c0m and seen some horrible things from s3xual and illicit things to b3he@ding people but such should not be displayed in the internet coz it just show the dark side of the world.
instead of people being indignated by such, they became eager and excited to watch the show. imagine what the heck our world has become nowadays.
again to all my generation, the fate of the world lies in our own hand. history was just the dame the circumstances that we have now. God punishes Israel and other nations because of their disobedience but God still love us that our Lord Jesus died on the cross at Calvary for the forgiveness of our sins and so that we could be part takers of His promise and covenants with our faters for the time to come.
John 3:16
"for God so loved the world, that he gaved His only begotten Son (JESUS). That whoever believeth in Him shall not perish BUT HAVE AN EVERLASTING LIFE."
instead of people being indignated by such, they became eager and excited to watch the show. imagine what the heck our world has become nowadays.
again to all my generation, the fate of the world lies in our own hand. history was just the dame the circumstances that we have now. God punishes Israel and other nations because of their disobedience but God still love us that our Lord Jesus died on the cross at Calvary for the forgiveness of our sins and so that we could be part takers of His promise and covenants with our faters for the time to come.
John 3:16
"for God so loved the world, that he gaved His only begotten Son (JESUS). That whoever believeth in Him shall not perish BUT HAVE AN EVERLASTING LIFE."
Monday, June 16, 2008
The Bibile on Prophecy and Premonition-Deuteronomy
Deuteronomy 18:14-22
The nations you will disposes listen to those who practice sorcery or divination. But as for you, the Lord your God has not permitted you to do so. The Lord your God will raise up for you a prophet like me from among your own brothers. You must listen to him. For this is what you askes of the Lord your God at Horeb on that day of the assembly when you said, "Let us not hear the voice of the Lord our God nor see this great fire anymore, or we wil die." The Lord said to me:"What they say is good. I will put my words in his mouth, and he will tell them everything I command him. If anyone does not listen to my wordsthat the prophet speaks in my name, I myself will call him to account. But a prophet to speak in my name anything I have not commanded him to say, or a prophet who speaks in the name of other gods, must be put to d3ath."
The nations you will disposes listen to those who practice sorcery or divination. But as for you, the Lord your God has not permitted you to do so. The Lord your God will raise up for you a prophet like me from among your own brothers. You must listen to him. For this is what you askes of the Lord your God at Horeb on that day of the assembly when you said, "Let us not hear the voice of the Lord our God nor see this great fire anymore, or we wil die." The Lord said to me:"What they say is good. I will put my words in his mouth, and he will tell them everything I command him. If anyone does not listen to my wordsthat the prophet speaks in my name, I myself will call him to account. But a prophet to speak in my name anything I have not commanded him to say, or a prophet who speaks in the name of other gods, must be put to d3ath."
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Biblical basis of my gift
Timothy 4:4-5
For everything God created is good and nothing is rejected if it is received with thanksgiving because it is consecrated by the word of God and prayer.
For everything God created is good and nothing is rejected if it is received with thanksgiving because it is consecrated by the word of God and prayer.
Sunday, June 8, 2008
The First Time that I looked into the future
I can't remember how old I am when we have gone to Madella, Quirino in the Philippines to attend a wedding celebration of my dad's best friend who was also his cousin.
Before we go, maybe a few years or months or whatsoever before such travel, I have seen myself standing infront of a two buildings in a dream. I didn't recall what had I dreamt when I woke up but my subconcious.
we were already in the wedding celebration and that's where i've seen a real disco.lol.
I can still remember the music and it was extrasi-extrano.
wen we woke up at near dawn, idon't know what the time is, but i can just guess it to be 3 am. we were chasing astray horses hoping that we could have the thrilling ride of our life but the horses, wild as they are, runaway from us. they're scared probably.
next place to find, a place where we could drop the atomic or in layman's term,our "SH!T". indeed we found a place to dop our payload and lo!, i have seen an orange sky. i've never seen such phenomenon in my entire life. to see a dawn as if it is a dusk. such was a feeling of ecstacy for me.
then the finale,
behold, the vision revealed to me had happend right before my eyes. the same settings, time and space, of what i've seen in my dream a just recently.
i can't help but wonder why it seemed to me that i've gone trough such place before and the vision in my dream. i just don't know the answer to this and it was still an experience i can't forget up to this very day i'm writing this stuff.
thanks for reading.
regards,
divine-eye
Before we go, maybe a few years or months or whatsoever before such travel, I have seen myself standing infront of a two buildings in a dream. I didn't recall what had I dreamt when I woke up but my subconcious.
we were already in the wedding celebration and that's where i've seen a real disco.lol.
I can still remember the music and it was extrasi-extrano.
wen we woke up at near dawn, idon't know what the time is, but i can just guess it to be 3 am. we were chasing astray horses hoping that we could have the thrilling ride of our life but the horses, wild as they are, runaway from us. they're scared probably.
next place to find, a place where we could drop the atomic or in layman's term,our "SH!T". indeed we found a place to dop our payload and lo!, i have seen an orange sky. i've never seen such phenomenon in my entire life. to see a dawn as if it is a dusk. such was a feeling of ecstacy for me.
then the finale,
behold, the vision revealed to me had happend right before my eyes. the same settings, time and space, of what i've seen in my dream a just recently.
i can't help but wonder why it seemed to me that i've gone trough such place before and the vision in my dream. i just don't know the answer to this and it was still an experience i can't forget up to this very day i'm writing this stuff.
thanks for reading.
regards,
divine-eye
Thursday, June 5, 2008
my divine eye
this blog is created by me in order that i may post what i's seeing with my extraordinary gift and my daily experiences in life- my notion of love, insecurities and fears or just whatsoever..i'm not frantic or lunatic or paranoid.i'm just a man posting in this simple blog expressing myself.
thatnks for the visit.
regards,
divine-eye
thatnks for the visit.
regards,
divine-eye
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