Live for More for You

>>>>this poem i wrote last May when i was experiencing some mental turbulence. I thought i was going insane to the point that i would want to k1ll or commit su1c1de. nevertheless, i just let out my insanity reppressed by writing this poem. thanks to her that i was able to gain my sanity somehow.<<<<<

It's been the same everyday,
the burden I have since infancy
is still troubling me each day

This illness on my mind, when will it end
Or will I say, this very life of mine will I end
Some days i'm high
and some days i'm low
some days i'm like god
and some days i don't know

The world adds trouble
or should i die that there'll be
no more trouble

I've been saved a thousand d3ath
and big thanks to her
She came to my life
and everything becomes sublime

She was the star that lights me
in a lonely night
and a lighthouse
that guides my voyage
in the tempest of the sea

How wonderful it is,
the first time i met her
I more desired to live more
than i had wanted to d1e

Indeed the world has no meaning
but colours and beauty did now i see

I can see her in the rising
of the sun at dawn
I can see her face
when i'm doing my daily chores
And all I could do is
to remember the very sweet smile of hers
as i lay to my bed
at night

But fate was so rough for me
were now made separate
and i can see no hope of her coming back
my morning star, now's gone

Just like before, now i'm suffering again
because of my insanity
this very insanity that i h@te
it's k1ll1nG me
i'm now planning again and again
to take my life

But never will it happen,
though we may be apart,
were one in my heart
I would d1e for her
but never would i d1e
for myself

I would rather live in pain
with me thinking of you
then d1e and d1e with my love for you.


>>>>>a poem i'd want to share to my fellows who were suffering bipolar disorders or any other mental related illness.
the cure for this curse is to fall in love.

Faith, Hope and Love were some good things He gaved us through His Son, Jesus
But the Greatest is Love.<<<<<

regards,